Stress Center Peer Support

Its been a very long time since i have posted.
i came here to chat almost 4 yrs ago. I was pregnant at the time and struggling very much with my anxiety. I met some very genuine people here and wanted to thank them here in the forums. I triumph over the growth i have gained from my journey thru and with the program. I never thought i could get better. I didnt feel hope many times and have never got the support i needed until StressCenter.
Thank you. Thank you for those that have taken time out of their lives for mine. thank you for the encouragement and concerns. Thank you for understanding and helping me along this fearful experience. I have gained much wisdom. I thank StressCenter.com for caring enough to share, for Lucinda and her life story. We can benifit from others sharing experiences. We can learn from others and i triumph in the greatness of the strength and courage we all have in our trials and struggles with anxiety and depression. I am grateful for my experiences. i am thankful to have learned how to manage my anxiety. I am grateful for where i am today. We grow from trial, we can have sucess in managing and controling our situations. i believe it has formed me to love others more and to listen more and share more. I may not be " recovered" from my anxieties and depressing moments but i am happy to know what i am, and that what i deal with is better today than it ever was. I " get it"... and that makes me smile. I still have hard times and moments where i have left the door open and it sneaks in but i have learned to tell the anxiety that it is not welcome to stay. Not even a visit ! I have learned that i can be above it and that i am ok. I am safe and i am my bestfriend. I share this with you because i feel triumphant in my progress and believe we all can feel the hope and strength in our lives. We are strong people and we are sensitive and good. We can offer much love to others that experience the same issues. Its all possible. And i am proof of that growth thru this program and dear friends . thank you .....my life is good and i am blessed. I can do this ... I am doing it one day at a time. That is all I have .... one day at a time. Thank you my friends !
wanthappyagain

Thank you so much for that post It is so nice to hear about people winning with their anexity.

Give me hope that I can overcome it

Thank you for your post - it really gives me hope to see that I can do this. I went through the program (with coaching) and completed it in early January 2008. I went through the program because I was stressed out to the max at work and I wanted to get pregnant and I was afraid that I couldn't or that if I did that I couldn't handle being pregnant...however this is what I want more than anything. I became obsessed with my current situation – became depressed and very fearful…I went down into a deep deep hole. I have gone through things like this before, but I believe that this time was my ultimate low. At that time I decided to do the program and I went back on a small dosage of Paxil, which I recently weaned myself off completely (about a month ago) so that I can try again to get pregnant. I am doing fairly well - but I just don't know if I can ever really get through this and change - I am 27 and I have always been a perfectionist, a worrier, a "what iffer", a people pleaser, nervous... all the things they work on in the program. I try to be positive and do what the program says, but it worries me that I will never actually beat this...I want it so badly because I want to enjoy the present moment and start a family - but it so hard. I do feel better emotionally - but things have happened internally at work and sent me into another worrying frenzy and disaster thinking...it seems once things start to settle down – something bad happens at work and sends me several steps backward. Then I start obsessing about other stuff. I just wonder if I can ever handle the big stuff in life? Again I feel emotionally better, but my stomach has hurt almost constantly for a few weeks, my back is tight, I have some trouble sleeping (but I do sleep) and I have a few other anxiety symptoms. These scare me because it reminds me of the deep hole I was in before. I also think about having a baby - but I wonder if I can even handle being pregnant? What if I get really anxious and can't relax enough to get pregnant...or what if I do get pregnant and hurt the baby if I am so anxious? I guess I so badly want to feel better, but I feel like it is a slow process and I wonder if I will ever be completely be better? Does anyone have any advice? I just want to get better – but I fear not being able to really change.

Wendy, you go girl you're gonna make it and I'm proud of you!

"Slow and easy...keep moving forward, don't look back".

David