Posted: Thu May 15, 2008 5:04 pm
Since my miscarriage at the end of January I have been struggling....My good friend was pregnant and just delivered a beautiful baby girl on Monday. She was so excited for me to see her, and yet I felt myself becoming anxious. I started the "What if" questions- What if I cannot handle seeing and holding a baby? What if after I do I lose control of myself and my feelings?" I tried my best to apply the skills from the program by telling myself that maybe I will feel sad, but I will not loose control and I will work through it.
Well, today I went and saw my friend and her new daughter. I held her and I felt happy. I left there like I had just walked on the moon. I took a positive step towards my recovery, not only from the miscarriage, but from anxiety and panic attacks that have been in my life off and on since 1998.
Well, today I went and saw my friend and her new daughter. I held her and I felt happy. I left there like I had just walked on the moon. I took a positive step towards my recovery, not only from the miscarriage, but from anxiety and panic attacks that have been in my life off and on since 1998.