* You get all panicky two weeks before you have to pick up your relatives at the airport
because you have to drive at night on the freeway.
* You stare at your pills for a very long time before you can get the nerve up to take just one
at a time.
* You take your pills one pill at a time with exceptionally large amounts of water because you
are afraid you are going to choke on the pill you are swallowing.
* You must always know where every bathroom is in the entire city, just in case you have
an "emergency" and must make a mad dash for that restroom door.
*You already have anxiety, stress, depression, mood disorder and panic and now
you are chronically worried that you are also getting OCD, ADD and agoraphobia.
* You get all panicky because your relatives are coming to visit, even though they are only
coming to town for barely two days.
* You worry that people are always watching you. They are watching you at the grocery store.
They are watching you at the coffee-house. They are watching you in line at the local bank.
They are watching you at the post office. They are watching you take out your trash.
* You cannot even concentrate on doing just one thing. You try to watch television, but
after a while that doesn't interest you. You try to read a book but can't finish a chapter.
* You write a very long and emotional e-mail and then delete it because it just sounds stupid.
*You would rather stay at home for two days while your relatives come to town to visit.
You know that you miss them and that you want to see them very much, but you still want
to stay home alone and be bored to death instead.
......Yes, my relatives really are coming to visit........TOMORROW
Lynda Lu