Posted: Sun Aug 30, 2009 2:12 am
I've been bothered by anxiety off and on for over 30 years. Some of the episodes are quick lasting about a month. The more difficult ones linger on a bit longer.
I recently had an episode about a month ago after a stressfull period. It slowly came on and I tried to catch it by increasing my Paxil dosage (I was just about off the Paxil).
Instead of panic attacks I started getting the unreality symtoms. Its been hell the past couple of weeks going to work and trying to rest when I get home. The whole unreality thing really kicks you where it hurts. I start looking at the world around me in a whole new different way. It is scary. My thoughts scare the hell out of me too. I worry about dying, going insane, suffering from depression, hurting myself and others. The whole cycle sucks.
I am usually a positive person but when I get stuck in this pattern, I can't think positive about anything. Everything scares me.
I basically force myself to get out of the house. The other night I had to drive up to college with my daughter. We weren't 5 miles from our house and I felt panic setting in. i was ready to tell her to turn around before I caught myself and clamed down. The remainder of the trip was actually relaxing. But later, the unreal thoughts began again.
I know I beat this before but everytime it happens its new again and a struggle. I have knots in my belly, pins and needles on my arms and legs and I am afraid I'll lose it.
Anyone ever feel like this for a period of time? I am not as bad as I was last week. Maybe the Paxil is kicking in.
I recently had an episode about a month ago after a stressfull period. It slowly came on and I tried to catch it by increasing my Paxil dosage (I was just about off the Paxil).
Instead of panic attacks I started getting the unreality symtoms. Its been hell the past couple of weeks going to work and trying to rest when I get home. The whole unreality thing really kicks you where it hurts. I start looking at the world around me in a whole new different way. It is scary. My thoughts scare the hell out of me too. I worry about dying, going insane, suffering from depression, hurting myself and others. The whole cycle sucks.
I am usually a positive person but when I get stuck in this pattern, I can't think positive about anything. Everything scares me.
I basically force myself to get out of the house. The other night I had to drive up to college with my daughter. We weren't 5 miles from our house and I felt panic setting in. i was ready to tell her to turn around before I caught myself and clamed down. The remainder of the trip was actually relaxing. But later, the unreal thoughts began again.
I know I beat this before but everytime it happens its new again and a struggle. I have knots in my belly, pins and needles on my arms and legs and I am afraid I'll lose it.
Anyone ever feel like this for a period of time? I am not as bad as I was last week. Maybe the Paxil is kicking in.