Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 2:42 am
Hi everyone
Well, I was really hoping not to be back here again but it seems every few years, I just need to freak myself out in some way.
My husbands' ex just had a hysterectomy due to cervical cancer. The sad part is that I have not been for a pap in 5 years. My last test came back with abnormal cells but then when I went back, it was all good and no bad cells. Great relief but it scared me and I haven't been back since. Now she has been diagnosed and had it and now I am obsessing that I do too. She is a smoker in poor health and I am a non smoker which I have researched and apparantely makes a HUGE difference. I eat right and have always had perfect health. I work with women who always say...."you create what you think" that has me freaked out even more because as you obessessive thinkers know, I can't stop thinking about it. I have a doctors' appointment in 3 weeks to get my check up but it's the What If's that are killing me. I just keep freaking myself out by saying that since my husband's ex had it, I must have it. Even though I know it is the slowest growing cancer and worst case scenario would probably be a hysterectomy for me too, how can I stop worrying about this. I imagine myself only having a few years left to live and how I will really freak out if she calls with bad news even though last time the bad news turned out to be nothing.
Any tips from anyone? I sure would appreciate some encouragement on this.
thanks all, I am here to help anyone else who needs it too. It's nice to have somewhere with like minded people to vent to.
Well, I was really hoping not to be back here again but it seems every few years, I just need to freak myself out in some way.
My husbands' ex just had a hysterectomy due to cervical cancer. The sad part is that I have not been for a pap in 5 years. My last test came back with abnormal cells but then when I went back, it was all good and no bad cells. Great relief but it scared me and I haven't been back since. Now she has been diagnosed and had it and now I am obsessing that I do too. She is a smoker in poor health and I am a non smoker which I have researched and apparantely makes a HUGE difference. I eat right and have always had perfect health. I work with women who always say...."you create what you think" that has me freaked out even more because as you obessessive thinkers know, I can't stop thinking about it. I have a doctors' appointment in 3 weeks to get my check up but it's the What If's that are killing me. I just keep freaking myself out by saying that since my husband's ex had it, I must have it. Even though I know it is the slowest growing cancer and worst case scenario would probably be a hysterectomy for me too, how can I stop worrying about this. I imagine myself only having a few years left to live and how I will really freak out if she calls with bad news even though last time the bad news turned out to be nothing.
Any tips from anyone? I sure would appreciate some encouragement on this.
thanks all, I am here to help anyone else who needs it too. It's nice to have somewhere with like minded people to vent to.