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Hello!! I am suffering from anxiety and depression. I have been on celexa for 2 weeks. i seen the psychiatrist and been feeling better comparing last week. I am pregnant of 4 months now with my first child. I have this thoughts that I will hurt him after he is born. This scary me so much. It is so sad...I cant enjoy doing his room, buying his little clothes because I freak out. I always dreamed about being pregnant and how beautiful it is and now all this happens...I am so disapointed with myself...I go to the church everyday and pray so much for all this to go away. I feel hopeless and sometimes I cant the end of all this. My thoughts race like crazy and is not one thing is another thing bothering me. I can kind control it but I dont want to be fighting with my mind for the rest of my life..I want to enjoy to be a mother!!! Please help!

Luli
I'm sorry you are suffering with these thoughts. Try to give yourself a break, these thoughts come from our anxiety. Have you started the program. My advice is to focus on the program. It will amaze you at how much better you will feel. I too have had thoughts such as these, I know I would never hurt my child, and I know you won't either. They are thoughts only thoughts. It is just part of this condition. Focus on the program and do as they say, the homework etc. You will be fine. They are just silly thoughts, that's all it is. The less you make of them, the sooner they will leave. I am a wonderful mom and have had these thoughts and you will be a wonderful mom too. I wish you the best. I firmly believe in this program so stick with it.
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Angla

Hello Angla Thank you for your kind words. It is so good and conforting to know I am not alone!! I am trying to do anything possible to enjoy my pregnancy! Again thank you and God Bless you!

I'm sure things will get better for you. After all they are just irrational thoughts, but they do seem so real. You will eventually get to the point of recognizing the thoughts, change your focus and be OK instead of panicky.

I am on Celexa as well. I recommend following the program, along with your medication for a while. Celexa sort of made me feel numb and slightly disconnected with the world over time, but it also made me feel much less down.

That's why I would recommend following the program along with the medication. I'm sure the thoughts will get better for you. Stick with it, you can get there.

I really aprecciate your words and help! this help a lot, and is good to know that one day I will get better. But is so confusing, my thoughts go fro one topic to another and everything is bad. From one little thing it seems that would ende it up in tragedy....It bothers me so much. I am also impatint, I want to get better yesterday but I know it takes time. I just want to have peace of mind when my baby is born. I had a bad night lat night, I would wake up every hour almost with heart beating and my hands trembling...this is awful. I really hope all this goes away and I iam so glad I found new friends in this website!
God Bless all of you! Thank you for the support!

Hi Luli, I am so happy you decicded to join! Yay! You will find tremondous support here. Everyone here is wonderful and we are all going through the same thing in one way or another.

Today, remember this Luli, when you have a bad obsessive scary thought, know that it means that you are trying to advoid some other subject in your life.

I feel you may just be having a bout of anxiety knowing that you are having a baby soon, so, your mind, as strange as it sounds, is trying to distrasct you from this.

This happend to me Luli after my husband committed adultery. My obsessive scary thoughts, which I had always had, but, they were nothing like what I was dealing with after this happened began to focus on my younger son.

When the brain is too overloaded I feel, it can't just shut down, however what it can do is this, it can find something else for you to focus your attention to and as odd as it is, we would think well why is my mind working against me with scary thoughts? Why can't I be obsessed with flowers or birds? I stopped looking for answers to that and just began working this program and reading alot of books.

I am better and I still have thoughts real scary ones sometimes, the difference is this Luli, I now know that they are just that, thoughts, nothing more.

Luli, you will always have thoughts, you just need to learn that you have power over them, not them over you. Pay them no mind and they will subside over time, it is two steps foward and one step back with this. You are in my prayers today.

Smile Luli and go buy some baby clothes okay? When you don't you are giving power over your thoughts.

I have suffer with anxiety for years I have always wanted a baby but always feared my anxiety would get in the way. After 2 years of trying I am pregant only 5 weeks I just stopped taking my zoloft 25mg because I didn't want to hurt the baby's development, but I am already in a comeplete tailspin with these awful thoughts.

I know, isnt that awful?? pregnancy is a beautiful thing and we are supposed to be enjoying this pretty time but this thoughts are awful. I was so happy in the beggining and now I am devasted. Some days are better than others, but like today I couldnt sleep and fell nervous. Sometimes my thoughts dont make any sense at all, all not real, I mean NO SENSE and I think I must be going crazy.I used to enjoy going to the doctor's office to check up the baby, now it scares me. This is so sad, but I am not giving hope. This is not me. I am a different person and I was so happy. It has to be a away out. Lets think positive and try to do our best on this and I am sure we all get there! I am really thankfull for all my friends here that support me trough this! God Bless you all!

Luli, hang in there. I am currently 5 months pregnant, working through the program with scary thoughts of hurting others as well as doing uncontrollable things when I'm asleep. None of it is true, they are just racing thoughts. Keep using the relaxation tape. I had lapsed in my first 3 months due to morning sickness, and then when the second trimester arrived, and I was supposed to be happy the thoughts came back with a vengeance. I'm findling a little resolve this week with increasing my exercise, taking my vitamins regularly and I've started accupuncture. Currently on no meds. The thoughts are still there, but without as much weight. Try to enjoy the pregnancy, it goes quickly!
Lucie

There are a few things going on here, and none of them are dangerous.

Having a child can be scary. Raising another human being can be scary. It's a big responsibility but many have gone before you with this one so you know you can learn to relax with this. You were born with phobic tendencies. Hormonal changes in the body can trigger scary thoughts and anxiety - especially if you are prone to this - and certainly even if you aren't.

You are completely safe and so is your little one. I highly recommend that you set aside daily a time for you to listen to the relaxation tape and actively participate with it. (No falling asleep to it.) Then practice your breathing several minutes a day and really pay close attention to your breath. When thoughts wander in (and they will) gently bring your attention back to your breath work. Try breathing in and holding for four counts and then release slowly. Do these two things daily to give you a break from your obsessive thinking. It will help a lot in the long run.

Remind yourself that this is just your OCD. It is harmless. Do your best to not fight the thoughts. I know it's scary but if you can practice letting them come and go you will see that you have these thoughts less and less.

During your pregancy is a good time to work the program.