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by Paisleegreen » Mon Dec 06, 2010 3:22 pm
NeverQuit--I thought I would tell you about my late son. He has told me that he didn't want to live. I then would ask him about what is going at school, because he had trouble in school. He suffered from ADHD and he was a target of bullies.
So when he said he didn't want to live...I knew something has to be going on at school. He then told me and I got that taken care of and had him go to a different school after I had him see a Psychiatrist. He was put on some medication that he didn't want to take, so didn't.
The new school was great with him, but it was at a different school where he was confronted w/ bullies again. Anyway, long story short, he did take his life. It was very devastating to us and we never thought it would happen.
If your parents understand that you have anxiety and OCD and are patient w/ you, I don't think it would be a problem to tell them about your fears. You are coming here to get help and that is good. It will help them to know what you are working on.
The thing about suicide is that people don't usually tell someone to call the Dr, I'm going to kill myself. They are very despondent and depressed that they see there is no way out of their pain. So sometimes they will say nothing is wrong when asked.
That is why it is so troubling to those loved ones left behind to make heads or tails out of the suicide. What was the loved one thinking?
Usually a suicide note tells how they feel, and the reason why. But it doesn't take the pain away. I think telling your parents about your scary thoughts is something that I recommend, just so that you can have a sounding board and hopefully they can help trouble shoot what is bringing you anxiety.
Do you have another safe person you can talk to about your scary thoughts?
If what I'm telling you is off base, I rather I at least addressed your posting then to just let you go unanswered w/o any response. You are older and wiser than my son was, and have a lot going for you it looks like.
I hope others will respond to your posting that has more experience with this. Paislee