Posted: Tue Sep 09, 2008 3:44 pm
I just turned 25 and I am still at home. The same house since I was 5 yrs old! WHile its cute and cozy and Im very well in my comfort zone and mom still cooks great meals, I NEED to get out and be on my own. Only Im having a terrible time trying to do it.
My mother is all I know. My older brother moved out at like 27a nd he never really comes to see her. My parents divorced when I was 5, so I rally held on tight to my mother, forming an unbelievable bond thats I am so grateful for. However, it has given me the anxiety of leaving her.
I almost feel guilty to close the chapter of growing up and starting a new one. I feel that at 25, its really time to move forward in an adult kind of way, it that makes sense! I feel like Im over one hump and trying to get on the next 25 yrs!
I have depression issues with men because my father left me at a young age and has not made ANY effort to try and have a stable relationship with me. Its heart breaking, but Ive decided to give up on him after much effort. Im emotionally exhausted by him. I emotionally exhaust myself if a man doesnt call. I hate it!
Anyway...how do I just get up and go!?? I know once I just "do it" I will be ok, however, its the "doing it" that just scares me and makes me so depressed to leave my 63 yr old mom, whom is 100% very healthy and looks 45!! She has her boyfriend of 20 yrs, but I feel that it is me who brings her true happiess!
My mother is all I know. My older brother moved out at like 27a nd he never really comes to see her. My parents divorced when I was 5, so I rally held on tight to my mother, forming an unbelievable bond thats I am so grateful for. However, it has given me the anxiety of leaving her.
I almost feel guilty to close the chapter of growing up and starting a new one. I feel that at 25, its really time to move forward in an adult kind of way, it that makes sense! I feel like Im over one hump and trying to get on the next 25 yrs!
I have depression issues with men because my father left me at a young age and has not made ANY effort to try and have a stable relationship with me. Its heart breaking, but Ive decided to give up on him after much effort. Im emotionally exhausted by him. I emotionally exhaust myself if a man doesnt call. I hate it!
Anyway...how do I just get up and go!?? I know once I just "do it" I will be ok, however, its the "doing it" that just scares me and makes me so depressed to leave my 63 yr old mom, whom is 100% very healthy and looks 45!! She has her boyfriend of 20 yrs, but I feel that it is me who brings her true happiess!