Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 6:38 am
I am ready to start session 4 and really had a hard time with 2 and 3. Anyways this I just feel so depressed and crying easily. Alot of my issues are with my family. I have 4 sisters and one of them has caused so much turmoil in our family. She is 5 years older then me and has so many issues. We both have a daughter the same age. She is not raising her daughter my other sister is and she used to talk terrible about her and now they are like best friends. It is so fake it bothers me and the reason she has my sister taking care of her is because they have alot of money and are able to give her everything. Now I feel my kids have been pushed aside because my niece is there priority. It hurts. I don't ever hear from my sister that has done this just the one taking care of her daughter. Anyways that sister is still married but living with another man for 3 yrs. now. What is wrong with this woman gosh. I can't be fake and I will be seeing her and her boyfriend at an upcoming wedding and am so stressed as to how to handle it. I have a hard time with it and being fake. We struggle financially and she is just living the good life but still trying to act like she is a good mom. I talk to my mom this morning and then just started feeling so depressed and tearful. Some people also do so wrong and then get away with so much. It has put so much stress on our entire family except the sister taking care of her just keeps saying you have to forgive her for all she has done. She tells me to pray about it and I do but it is hard for me to want to sugar coat her and everything. I don't know why I feel like this. I feel so lonely and she has put so much stress that I don't even talk to her other kids and we were close and one time. Now they only call the Aunt that is taking care of there little sister. And my little niece is becoming so spoiled and a brat. Very competitive with my daughter. Oh I just want to get out of this negative mood I am in. Please send some advice my way. I have been crying and just so depressed and down. I really don't want to go on any medication is ther a natural way to help with my weepiness. Sorry this is so long. I have no one to turn to for answers.
I think the advice your sister gave you about prayer is right on the mark. How old is your niece? Maybe look at this situation from her point of view? I mean, if I were abandoned by my mother back in the day I would have took it personaly. Remember, this is not a perfect world and as much as we hate to admit it somethings are just beyond our control 
I've actually began to not only accept this concept but cherish it as well...what a relief when you really think about it! Anyhoo, take care of yourself and allow the pieces to fall where they may.