My Onion

NinjaFrodo · Post by **NinjaFrodo** » Sat Sep 04, 2010 6:50 am

I'm actually not waiting for them to go away. In fact i think i'm doing the opposite and facing that limitation too much. I end up being social with people on a daily basis, I mean there are my housemates i talk to everyday, if i'm doing hip hop then there are a few people there i talk to, yoga class i'm talking to people, sometimes when i workout i talk to people and i see my old trainner and i talk to her. I also hangout with friends one on one (which is the hardest) and I go to birthday parties too. Today there is actually a games night i want to go to but well i think I'm actually in the beginning stages of getting sick...a cold. I do use my breathing while i notice i have anxiety while conversating and it does help to reduce the anxiety but it doesn't go away and it keeps getting stronger while times goes on while in that social situation. Its good practice to keep using the 6 steps (or at least the breathing because it is hard to use positive self-talk while in the middle of a conversation) but I push myself too hard.

It seems what i want and need also changes depending on what activities I have decided to do. I didn't even think of doing hip-hop several years ago and now I wouldn't mind doing some professional work in that area. Maybe i could be one of the first shiatsu/hip-hop dancers out there.

As for the lottery, I am afraid to win lots of money but i found that dollar on the ground and I just feel like that is a sign for me to play the lottery. If I did win a rediculous ammount of money I think i might travel to a few people's places that post on the forums.

I'm actually thinking of making a thread in the lesson category of the lesson we are on that week. So i'll start one for lesson 2 on monday.

Mike

NinjaFrodo · Post by **NinjaFrodo** » Sat Sep 04, 2010 3:47 pm

Ok so i checked the website of the lottery that I had played. I was really anxious to check it because I just felt really good about it and well my effort has paid off! I was soooo excited when i checked the numbers, my affirmations and positive thinking are working!!! I won a whole five dollars and I had gotten 3 out of the 6 numbers right! Isn't that amazing? I'm definately putting that towards another ticket so wish me more luck!

Mike

THH · Post by **THH** » Mon Sep 06, 2010 3:01 pm

Wow!!! Good Luck! I hope you do win the big one! I knew a family who won a big lottery. It was a amazing story. This women who had 9 kids, her husband died. She remarried many years later to a cool guy who was a great father to all the kids. Well thier house burned down. He bought a lottery ticket and won! They rebuilt a house and traveled some. They are great people. That was a short version! LOL... Good Luck MIKE!

THH · Post by **THH** » Mon Sep 06, 2010 3:15 pm

Did you get a cold? I hope not.
Good I'm glad your making contact with others. I was not sure what you ment when you said you were waiting or symptoms to go away.
Your doing all the right stuff, keep giving your self challenges and praise yourself on the progress you have made. Its a good point too on reconizing you may push yourself too hard, Make high demands on yourself, get to tired, or eat too much sugar or caffine. I also agree when in the middle of a conversation you can't do self talk and listen. I breath, focus on the words the other person is saying,( reconize to myself that I am feeling anxious) If I am into the conversaation I can stay with it, but if not I can't. Then I'll usually say I gotta keep going here, but it was nice to see you. Then I regroup my thoughts and get on with what I was doing before. Practice gets me though it and summer months give me so many opportunites to practice.

I'll start my session 2 Tues.
Have a nice night...

P.S. My stupid "F" key, I have to push really hard to make it type? I must clean my key board.

NinjaFrodo · Post by **NinjaFrodo** » Tue Sep 07, 2010 4:21 am

Wow that is an amazing story. I wonder what would make someone buy a lottery ticket after their house burned down? You'd think that would be really bad luck.

Yes I got a really nasty cold. I'm not coughing as much which is good but still really tired, dizzy and I got a new symptom today, a headache.

I still face my limitations but the anxiety hasn't gotten less. I'm waiting for the time they go away but i'm not completely avoiding my limitations.

Maybe that kinda "out" is a good idea. I remember Lucinda mentioning about using those in social situations if you have a limitation with social anxiety. I think i'll use that.

Yeah summer is pretty good for practice opportunities.

Mike