Posted: Sun Jan 11, 2009 9:38 am
Hey, Im new here, I figured Id give this a try. I have been in the program for about a month and a half now, and am starting to see some results My girlfriend left me about 3 months ago, So I figured I would try the program. The breakup triggered my old anxiety and depression in a very big way. I havnt had much experience in the dating world as I tend to be pretty shy and brought up in a strict religious family. Im a little green! I met this girl at a bar my band was playing at and we hit it off really well. It wasn't until the end of the gig that I learned my new roomate was her ex husband....ouch! Afterwards I told her NO consecutive times about seeing her again, I did'nt want to hurt her ex-husband... She kept trying to pressure me into it. It wasn't until she played the God card that I finally caved... Stupid me! I have been a devout Catholic my whole life, and when she said she had started going to church here and there and wanted to find God well I couldn't say no... Everyone told me to stay away from her, (shes gonna hurt you!) But I turned a blind eye.
Half of me agreed the other half wanted to help her. Plus we did have an amazing connection.
It was the best and worst thing that ever happened to me. I never felt so good. Yet I almost knew that she would move on. I pleaded with her to stay but when shes made up her mind that was it.
Now I just struggle with moving on, I am doing better now thanks to the program but I feel I dwell in the old too much. Its been 3 months but i still think about the walks the talks the candle-lite dinners. I get stuck on those little things that helped my anxiety and depression fade into the background a bit. I have never met someone with a connection like that and I feel like I never will again. I know I should tell myself that I will but its hard...
Half of me agreed the other half wanted to help her. Plus we did have an amazing connection.
It was the best and worst thing that ever happened to me. I never felt so good. Yet I almost knew that she would move on. I pleaded with her to stay but when shes made up her mind that was it.
Now I just struggle with moving on, I am doing better now thanks to the program but I feel I dwell in the old too much. Its been 3 months but i still think about the walks the talks the candle-lite dinners. I get stuck on those little things that helped my anxiety and depression fade into the background a bit. I have never met someone with a connection like that and I feel like I never will again. I know I should tell myself that I will but its hard...