Posted: Sun Apr 20, 2008 1:04 am
Hi!
Posting is new to me so please bear with me. I started suffering from anxiety/panic/depression back in 2000 after my father died. I worked really hard in conjunction with the program, therapist and medication and got better. I have been medicine/therapist free for at least 5 years. Then 2 weeks ago BAM out of nowhere I got slammed with anxiety again. I am so exhausted. I had 2 good days in that time and I know when I feel fine that my irrational thoughts are just that irrational, but when I am in the panic momement I feel like such a horrible person. I started the tapes again and I have a therapist appointment. I know it is a temorary situation, but it feels like forever when you are going through it. I feel a bit like I have failed because I thought I was 100% for all these years. It started 2 Monday's ago, that following Thursday my husband was having surgery to reverse his vasectomy which we have been planning for over a year. Now I think what if I screw up my child what if I have anxiety throughout my pregnancy, what if I get depressed afterwards. I think this is the underlying cause. Also, my grandfather died in January and I know my fathers death was a trigger the first time, so this could have something to do with it also.
Posting is new to me so please bear with me. I started suffering from anxiety/panic/depression back in 2000 after my father died. I worked really hard in conjunction with the program, therapist and medication and got better. I have been medicine/therapist free for at least 5 years. Then 2 weeks ago BAM out of nowhere I got slammed with anxiety again. I am so exhausted. I had 2 good days in that time and I know when I feel fine that my irrational thoughts are just that irrational, but when I am in the panic momement I feel like such a horrible person. I started the tapes again and I have a therapist appointment. I know it is a temorary situation, but it feels like forever when you are going through it. I feel a bit like I have failed because I thought I was 100% for all these years. It started 2 Monday's ago, that following Thursday my husband was having surgery to reverse his vasectomy which we have been planning for over a year. Now I think what if I screw up my child what if I have anxiety throughout my pregnancy, what if I get depressed afterwards. I think this is the underlying cause. Also, my grandfather died in January and I know my fathers death was a trigger the first time, so this could have something to do with it also.