Stress Center Peer Support

Hello everyone, i am new. I have harm ocd and i also worry about the purpose of life. I make myself sick thinking i am "apathetic" or that i could care less about life. Right now, that obsession is on the back burner. Currently my obsession is over this- I have Walter Mitty Syndrome. I fantacize over things, dream big and tell small fibs often. it is similar to pathological lying but its not because I dont lie in everyday convos and i USUALLY keep my fantasy stories to myself..but i do slip them in every once and awhile knowing that htey are lies? does that make sense...its really weird, i know. Well nobody knows that i have this and i do a pretty good job of covering it up, its private and very embarrassing and ive been trying to get help for it. Well all f a sudden, i want to shout it to the world. Tell everyone i know that i have it, that i am a liar...exagerating my condition. I WOULD NEVER want anyone to know, so why am i so tempted to tell everyone i come in contact with, particular my very loving family who would think i was way weirder than they already do. aaah. sorry this is so long, its just tormenting me.

I also often fantacize, dream big, and would tell small lies. I haven't told any lies in a long time. I think we do all of these things because we feel our lives aren't interesting enough. That all goes to self esteem.My parents, my friends, everyone I grew up around always had high expectations of me. When I didn't meet some of them I viewed it as a failure. All that matters is how we feel about ourself and our own expectations. If we take advantage of this program any dreams we have we'll become reality, if we want them to.I'm only in week 3 and I'm finding that the better I feel about myself the less I want fantacize or day dream about crap that is doing nothing to help me today. I'm accomplishing things that I was no where near 3 weeks ago. Little things like yard work, going to the mall, etc.. Don't waste your PRECIOUS PRESENT MOMENT.


My life is interesting and worth living to the fullest. So is yours