Yay we're on lesson 9. I think this one is a very important lesson for us because the fear and guilt can stop us in our tracks and keep us from living the lives we really want. I have several things I'd like to post for this lesson!
I had no idea the coaching vids were put on youtube...well here is lesson 9's video;
Lesson 9 coaching video
Mike
The Challenge...Lesson 9
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I was happy to find it. I only happened to stumble on it trying to find a music video that talked about guilt and worry...I didn't find one! I think I might need to separate them and look for guilt and worry songs. I don't even know what happened with my coaching vids.
No worries, take your time with the card. I'm taking my time with the quote. I am having a good day and I hope yourse is good too.
Mike
No worries, take your time with the card. I'm taking my time with the quote. I am having a good day and I hope yourse is good too.
Mike
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omg, this is awesome Mike!!! I watched the video, now I am starting at the beginning......I am such a better visual learner and these videos really re-inforce everything from the program so much!! Im going to download them and save the to watch frequently!! Thank you!!
here's a great big hug for you {{{{{MIKE}}}}}
here's a great big hug for you {{{{{MIKE}}}}}
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I've never heard the song till i found it today.
Karen L these videos are hopefully to help you understand your daughter more.
Gay Bullying on David Letterman
Mike
Karen L these videos are hopefully to help you understand your daughter more.
Gay Bullying on David Letterman
Mike
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Hi all -
I just wanted to let you all know that I've made a decision to stop posting on these threads. It has nothing to do with any of you. I think you all are wonderful people and have much to offer. It's simply that the commitment of time and effort required to keep up reading all of the posts and developing thoughtful responses is causing more anxiety than the relief I'm get through sharing in this journey.
I hope I'm not offending anyone because again it has nothing to do with any of you. In fact, I would am happy to keep in correspondence with any and all of you. I just won't be following this thread with any regularity. I still may pop in now an again.
This is not a goodbye. I'll still be around and available by PM and you may see a post by me occasionally on another thread. I just didn't want to disappear without saying something. You all have been so kind and I do care about you and your recoveries as well.
Until later,
Jamie
I just wanted to let you all know that I've made a decision to stop posting on these threads. It has nothing to do with any of you. I think you all are wonderful people and have much to offer. It's simply that the commitment of time and effort required to keep up reading all of the posts and developing thoughtful responses is causing more anxiety than the relief I'm get through sharing in this journey.
I hope I'm not offending anyone because again it has nothing to do with any of you. In fact, I would am happy to keep in correspondence with any and all of you. I just won't be following this thread with any regularity. I still may pop in now an again.
This is not a goodbye. I'll still be around and available by PM and you may see a post by me occasionally on another thread. I just didn't want to disappear without saying something. You all have been so kind and I do care about you and your recoveries as well.
Until later,
Jamie
"Common things occur commonly. Uncommon things don't. Therefore, when you hear hoofbeats, think horses, not zebras." -- C.J. Peters
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Part 3 Mother talks about her son's suicide
I thought this was important to be among the worry session. This is what gay people are afraid of, this is what I was afraid of. I had contemplated committing suicide many times and actually tried so this is very important to me. I was really scared, I felt alone, I didn't have anybody around me like me. I heard gay jokes both at school and at home, I couldn't escape from it. I felt like something was very wrong with me and that maybe it would have been better if I wasn't here anymore. I kept thinking this way for years upon years. Suicidal thoughts were a daily occurance and I tried to reach out for help. It wasn't just being gay but being molested too. I told my mother that I was depressed and was having suicidal thoughts and she didn't do anything. Nobody seemed to give a crap that I was suffering and people just distanced themselves from me. I hated everybody...how could they just go about their happy little lives and be ok with me suffering? How could people be so ignorant? I painted a picture on a big canvas of a castle filled with images of death and torture and nobody does a single thing about it? How can people be so stupid? I could have ended it and would anybody even notice or care? I guess my uncle would be happy considering he had told his friend that he wanted to line up all the gay people and shoot them.
I spent so much time on the internet when we eventually got it at our house and I was able to find people that I could talk to well at least about the sexual abuse but I didn't even know I was gay at the time. I was on it so much and my mother ended up cancelling the service because nobody could get through on the phone. She even got rid of the long distance so I had no contact with people about my pain, nobody I could confide it and then later on I find out my mother figured it out that I had been molested based on how I got upset and broke down at the table after I had cut my arm after seeing my cousin and my friend making out and it brought up painful memories. She told me she knew because she went through it and then she didn't even do anything about it!!!! She even let the guy continue to come into the house even though she knew how I felt and she saw my arms! How can people be so ignorant? How can you let your children go through that crap?!? I talked to my aunt about this stuff and apparently it got back to my mother and she gave me crap for it?!? She even threatened to call the cops because I was getting violent after she continued to let him in the house? And then when I went to the cops myself people turn on me and now I'm the bad guy?!? People I trusted talking behind my back saying I'm lying? My own family turning against me?!? How does something so terrible happen and people do nothing about it?!? Aren't mother's suppose to protect their children and love them more than anything in the world? And it just seems like determining if someone is right or wrong is based on how liked or respected the person is?!? And then I visit this person's sister all the time and she talks about how I should phone him or at the funeral when people are asking about this person!
Mike
I thought this was important to be among the worry session. This is what gay people are afraid of, this is what I was afraid of. I had contemplated committing suicide many times and actually tried so this is very important to me. I was really scared, I felt alone, I didn't have anybody around me like me. I heard gay jokes both at school and at home, I couldn't escape from it. I felt like something was very wrong with me and that maybe it would have been better if I wasn't here anymore. I kept thinking this way for years upon years. Suicidal thoughts were a daily occurance and I tried to reach out for help. It wasn't just being gay but being molested too. I told my mother that I was depressed and was having suicidal thoughts and she didn't do anything. Nobody seemed to give a crap that I was suffering and people just distanced themselves from me. I hated everybody...how could they just go about their happy little lives and be ok with me suffering? How could people be so ignorant? I painted a picture on a big canvas of a castle filled with images of death and torture and nobody does a single thing about it? How can people be so stupid? I could have ended it and would anybody even notice or care? I guess my uncle would be happy considering he had told his friend that he wanted to line up all the gay people and shoot them.
I spent so much time on the internet when we eventually got it at our house and I was able to find people that I could talk to well at least about the sexual abuse but I didn't even know I was gay at the time. I was on it so much and my mother ended up cancelling the service because nobody could get through on the phone. She even got rid of the long distance so I had no contact with people about my pain, nobody I could confide it and then later on I find out my mother figured it out that I had been molested based on how I got upset and broke down at the table after I had cut my arm after seeing my cousin and my friend making out and it brought up painful memories. She told me she knew because she went through it and then she didn't even do anything about it!!!! She even let the guy continue to come into the house even though she knew how I felt and she saw my arms! How can people be so ignorant? How can you let your children go through that crap?!? I talked to my aunt about this stuff and apparently it got back to my mother and she gave me crap for it?!? She even threatened to call the cops because I was getting violent after she continued to let him in the house? And then when I went to the cops myself people turn on me and now I'm the bad guy?!? People I trusted talking behind my back saying I'm lying? My own family turning against me?!? How does something so terrible happen and people do nothing about it?!? Aren't mother's suppose to protect their children and love them more than anything in the world? And it just seems like determining if someone is right or wrong is based on how liked or respected the person is?!? And then I visit this person's sister all the time and she talks about how I should phone him or at the funeral when people are asking about this person!
Mike
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Here is the link to the Letting Go thread which is designated for venting
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
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http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
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