Posted: Fri Apr 18, 2008 4:57 pm
of feeling not worthy, of feeling guilty, of feeling like i'm a failure. of thinking I'm unlovable, of judging myself and being my own worst enemy and critic. I'm hoping that as I go through session 9 all of these feelings of guilt and shame are increasing because I am going through a growth spurt. It's hard. really hard to let go of these yucky thought patterns. I know deep down they only cause suffering, but in some sick strange way it's all I've known and at least it's predictable. I think that's why I'm having such a hard time letting go.