Posted: Thu Aug 20, 2009 2:52 pm
Hello Everyone,
As many of you already know, I was agoraphobic and suffered from severe panic and anxiety attacks, accompanied by depression for 21 years of my life!!!
I prayed soooo earnestly that God would heal me from those horrific panic attacks!!! I was scared out of my wits, because my heart would pound fiercely within my chest and do all kinds of strange things!!!
I, honestly thought I was dying every day of my life, all day long!!! If someone had placed a loaded gun to my head, then, I know of a certainty that I could not have been more terrified!!!
I can remember how disoriented and disconnected
from society and even my own body that I would feel at times!!!
I just felt sooo robotic and I just existed, but, I wasn't truly living!!!
I could not see the beauty in anything, all that I could see or feel was gloom and doom!!!
And yes, I suffered soooo long from those scary obsessive thoughts!!!
I lived in total fear!!! As I look back upon my life, then, I truly believe that I was more scared of living than dying, although, I sure didn't want to die either!!!
I ordered the program almost 7 years ago, now!!! I did do the program and by the Grace of God I did begin to see my life in a fresh new light!!! The gloom and doom had lifted and I actually wanted to get out of the bed and live my life to the fullest!!!
I need for each of you to know that while I was suffering in that manner, that God was carrying me!!!
I, also, know of a certainty had my faith not been placed in Jesus, then, I would not have come out of that horrible pit, that I was in!!!
He never did leave me to suffer alone, although, I was far from perfect!!! I was His little child and He loved me through it all!!!
When you have come to the very end of your strength and you feel like you cannot go one more step, then, look straight to Jesus!!!
He is there my friends!!! He sees your suffering and pain, and it is not His will that you suffer in this manner!!!
Had I asked Jesus for more faith, then, I would have received more faith!!! The Bible says that you have not because you ask not!!!
Had I looked straight to Jesus, instead of the troublesome waters which were all around me, then, HE would have reached and took my hand and led me safely to the shore!!!
I expected these feelings to just disappear, like magic, or something!!! I did not want to do my part, I just wanted to be able to wish it all away!!!
I would pray every night, that I would wake up the next morning and the panic attacks would be a thing of the past!!!
It did not happen that way!!! There was no magic pill, or magician waving some magic wand, so, my pain continued!!!
My heart breaks for each of you who are suffering in this manner, God knows that it does!!!
Please, I beg of each of you look to Jesus for help and guidance!!! Study His word, read the book of "Psalms" and pray for help and deliverance!!!
If you have already asked Him for help, then, stop asking and start "Trusting"....Have faith in the ONE who is able to calm the troublesome seas, which are roaring all around you!!!
If you do not have HIM in your life, then, seek His precious face!!! He loves you more than you love your own children and that is sooo difficult to imagine!!!
You do NOT have to suffer in this manner, any longer!!! This is NOT God's will for your life!!! His will is for you to "prosper and be in good health"...
He has not given us the spirit of fear, but, of power, love and a sound mind!!!
I know that I have shared this video before, but, I would like to share it, once again, for those who are new here and have never seen it!!!
I love you all, and I pray that you trust in God to deliver you, as He promised in His Holy Word, and as He did for me!!! It is impossible for God to lie, so, TRUST ME, THERE IS HOPE!!!
Here is the video, I pray it helps you beyond human understanding!!!
Father's Love Letter
As many of you already know, I was agoraphobic and suffered from severe panic and anxiety attacks, accompanied by depression for 21 years of my life!!!
I prayed soooo earnestly that God would heal me from those horrific panic attacks!!! I was scared out of my wits, because my heart would pound fiercely within my chest and do all kinds of strange things!!!
I, honestly thought I was dying every day of my life, all day long!!! If someone had placed a loaded gun to my head, then, I know of a certainty that I could not have been more terrified!!!
I can remember how disoriented and disconnected
from society and even my own body that I would feel at times!!!
I just felt sooo robotic and I just existed, but, I wasn't truly living!!!
I could not see the beauty in anything, all that I could see or feel was gloom and doom!!!
And yes, I suffered soooo long from those scary obsessive thoughts!!!
I lived in total fear!!! As I look back upon my life, then, I truly believe that I was more scared of living than dying, although, I sure didn't want to die either!!!
I ordered the program almost 7 years ago, now!!! I did do the program and by the Grace of God I did begin to see my life in a fresh new light!!! The gloom and doom had lifted and I actually wanted to get out of the bed and live my life to the fullest!!!
I need for each of you to know that while I was suffering in that manner, that God was carrying me!!!
I, also, know of a certainty had my faith not been placed in Jesus, then, I would not have come out of that horrible pit, that I was in!!!
He never did leave me to suffer alone, although, I was far from perfect!!! I was His little child and He loved me through it all!!!
When you have come to the very end of your strength and you feel like you cannot go one more step, then, look straight to Jesus!!!
He is there my friends!!! He sees your suffering and pain, and it is not His will that you suffer in this manner!!!
Had I asked Jesus for more faith, then, I would have received more faith!!! The Bible says that you have not because you ask not!!!
Had I looked straight to Jesus, instead of the troublesome waters which were all around me, then, HE would have reached and took my hand and led me safely to the shore!!!
I expected these feelings to just disappear, like magic, or something!!! I did not want to do my part, I just wanted to be able to wish it all away!!!
I would pray every night, that I would wake up the next morning and the panic attacks would be a thing of the past!!!
It did not happen that way!!! There was no magic pill, or magician waving some magic wand, so, my pain continued!!!
My heart breaks for each of you who are suffering in this manner, God knows that it does!!!
Please, I beg of each of you look to Jesus for help and guidance!!! Study His word, read the book of "Psalms" and pray for help and deliverance!!!
If you have already asked Him for help, then, stop asking and start "Trusting"....Have faith in the ONE who is able to calm the troublesome seas, which are roaring all around you!!!
If you do not have HIM in your life, then, seek His precious face!!! He loves you more than you love your own children and that is sooo difficult to imagine!!!
You do NOT have to suffer in this manner, any longer!!! This is NOT God's will for your life!!! His will is for you to "prosper and be in good health"...
He has not given us the spirit of fear, but, of power, love and a sound mind!!!
I know that I have shared this video before, but, I would like to share it, once again, for those who are new here and have never seen it!!!
I love you all, and I pray that you trust in God to deliver you, as He promised in His Holy Word, and as He did for me!!! It is impossible for God to lie, so, TRUST ME, THERE IS HOPE!!!
Here is the video, I pray it helps you beyond human understanding!!!
Father's Love Letter