God still loves me when i am really bad
Posted: Fri Oct 05, 2012 1:56 pm
i am on session 2, going through program again.
while listening to the CD today, i had an "aha" moment. i was listening to the conversations on the second half, and something someone said on there brought to light to me that God isn't the one ready to bat us on the head for mistakes. we are, or other people at times. i know when i don't do something i felt i should, or i don't do things exactly the way i would like to have, i feel so upset at myself, like i am a failure. i think i have this same view of God. i mean, why wouldn't he be that way, right? especially when we are taught that He is such a perfect being.
anyway, something someone said in there made me feel like "oh yeah, God doesn't care. He still loves us and I imagine He is looking at us with compassion no matter what we did or are doing. He doesn't want to kick us away from him. I don't need to be so worried about what He thinks of me." im just a human like everyone else, and i'm not aweful like i tend to see myself as.
i hope this concept becomes more real to me.
i have been making some effort to talk to God. Lucinda mentions later that it is important to have a spiritual connection. that is something i haven't taken seriously for quite some time now. i have associated me being close to God with tons of anxiety.
while listening to the CD today, i had an "aha" moment. i was listening to the conversations on the second half, and something someone said on there brought to light to me that God isn't the one ready to bat us on the head for mistakes. we are, or other people at times. i know when i don't do something i felt i should, or i don't do things exactly the way i would like to have, i feel so upset at myself, like i am a failure. i think i have this same view of God. i mean, why wouldn't he be that way, right? especially when we are taught that He is such a perfect being.
anyway, something someone said in there made me feel like "oh yeah, God doesn't care. He still loves us and I imagine He is looking at us with compassion no matter what we did or are doing. He doesn't want to kick us away from him. I don't need to be so worried about what He thinks of me." im just a human like everyone else, and i'm not aweful like i tend to see myself as.
i hope this concept becomes more real to me.
i have been making some effort to talk to God. Lucinda mentions later that it is important to have a spiritual connection. that is something i haven't taken seriously for quite some time now. i have associated me being close to God with tons of anxiety.