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My severe depression started when I lost my mom last year. I love the Lord more than anything in my life but I just felt so alone and lost in this big old world. I tried to turn to my husband but he didnt have time to worry about my problems. I eventually turned to someone else. I cannot forgive myself for this and I hate myself. Although my husband has forgiven me and wants me to come home I cant forgive. I am so dissapointed in myself but I have feeling for the other guy. Please pray for me I need it so badly.

Connie, I feel your pain. The Lord said to pray "forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." Most often, the toughest part of forgiveness is forgiving oneself.

Take comfort in these passages:

"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool." Isaiah 1:18

For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. Psalm 103:11-12

Receive God's forgiveness He gave you on the cross and move on. He wants that for you.

Trust me, I know. As a transgendered person, I had to accept I was made in His image and that the most important role I have on this earth is to develop a personal relationship with Him and serve others. I now know a new freedom and a new happiness, and I am filled with peace and contentment. May God give you the same.

God Bless you and your family.

What excellent advice (((Lisa)))!!! You said it soooooo very well!!! All God requires of us is to repent and get on with our lives!!! Amen and Amen!!!

HE is the perfect ONE, and HE is sitting on the right hand of the Father making intercessions for us all of the time!!!

I pray to my Heavenly Father in the Precious Name of Christ Jesus that God gives you HIS strength, because each of us need HIS strength to make it through this journey called LIFE!!!

And I also pray to our Heavenly Father in the Precious Name of Jesus Christ, that HE helps you forgive yourself!!!

I pray that HE picks you up in HIS arms and hold you very, very close to HIM!!! For in HIM, there is sooooo very much peace and security!!!

I love all of my sisters and brothers in Christ Jesus and I pray that HE blesses every single one of them and that HE leads and guides each and every single mind, so that every single one will go in the direction, which HE would have them to go!!! Amen and Amen!!!

Connie,I am so sorry for all that you have been going through and the severe depression.Somewhere I heard that God thinks much better of us than we do of ourselves.Depression is a hard one to live with especially, when it becomes severe.I have had to call out to God for help and even to help me breathe as I was feeling suffocated.He hears you from His sancutary.He has every tear counted and in a bottle.Imagine A God who cares that much for you!!He gives his angels charge concerning you and will hold you by their hand to keep you from striking your foot against a stone (Ps 91).Your name is even inscribed in the palms of His hands."Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing,that you may abound in hope,through the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

I'm sorry for your loss and your deep depression. I lost my 15 1/2 year old son to suicide and then my mother a year later and my father 7 months after my Mom. Then more deaths continued...but these are more significant. I had to force myself from my depression of a year after losing my son to care for my father after my Mother's death. She died 10 days after having a bad stroke then my father got cancer out of the blue.

I hope that you are getting some counseling before you do make any drastic decisions you might be sorry for. Please forgive yourself and your husband for not quite understanding. Men are sometimes think differently or are in there own pain and sorrow.

Anyway, take care of yourself.