Stress Center Peer Support

First of all, thanks to everyone out there. I feel so much better knowing that I'm not alone in the world. I can't believe there are actually others who can truly understand what I feel.
Secondly, I do need advice on learning to get back out into the world. I am agoraphobic. Every time I go somewhere, I feel like I am just biding my time until I can get back to where "it's safe". I know that we are supposed to be our own safe person and place, but I want feel peaceful and that is at home. The further away I get, the more I start to feel like I won't be o.k. and I better get back before things get really bad and I can't handle whatever will happen to me. I'm afraid I won't be able to get back sometimes. I picture myself on the side of the road hyperventilating until someone comes to get me. I get so tense and I can't get very far from my house. Has anyone experienced this and how did you learn to deal with it? Any suggestions would be appreciated.
Thanks, EllaRose

Hello and yes I can relate totally. I used to drive everywhere without a second thought. I drive only locally and If i go long distances, then i have to have someone with me (preferably an adult). I think my reasons come from the fact that the times that i did have a panic attack i was by myself on the road alone. so i fear the fear of having another attack. i go places with my co-workers and family, but never alone. it scares me that i have this fear. I keep xanax in my purse, just in case i have a panic attack, i don;t use them, unless absolutely necessary..it seems to help me to know that i have something to help me in case i get in a bind. Its my weird/scary thoughts, the "what if" thoughts that keep me occupied and i'm trying to work on controling them. Having this fear is so not who i used to be. it seems that it has come from no where. i am embarrassed to let anyone know i have this fear. i am a strong person outside this fear. i feel i have lost a big part of myself to this fear. the program says that we create our own anxiety, so i want to get my independence back. i just started the program a few weeks ago.. so glad to know i'm not the only one out there with this fear. I wish you only the best.

I just started this program, and I want to say that I can totally understand and relate to what you are or maybe now "were" going though. I feel the same way when it comes to travel. I prefer to be close to home always. I'm praying that with this program, I can learn to feel safe no matter how far away I am, and be comfortable and want to see what's out there that I've been missing! It's very hard, I know! Take care!