If I get better, what will I do with my time?
Posted: Wed May 15, 2013 12:03 pm
Worrying is my forte. I'm really good at it. Unfortunately, I've missed out on some important life events because of anticipatory anxiety. It's not even what will happen, as I am beginning to understand and question "What's the worst that can happen?", it's that I won't be able to handle my feelings. I'm afraid of how I will react.
I've seen the correlation between this Session and Session 3. Negative self talk talks me out of participating in my life while compassionate self talk talks me into it and is more realistic. Fear of failure is a great motivator. But I'm seeing that my definition of failure is skewed. I am seeing that negative self talk is just an inhibitor. I thought I was keeping myself safe, but realize there's nothing to be kept safe from!
"Just do it" is the key to this Session, it seems. It is very difficult, though, when my worry and negative anticipation is so convincing. I will try to circumvent my wall of thoughts. Like jumping into a swimming pool without thinking about it.
I've seen the correlation between this Session and Session 3. Negative self talk talks me out of participating in my life while compassionate self talk talks me into it and is more realistic. Fear of failure is a great motivator. But I'm seeing that my definition of failure is skewed. I am seeing that negative self talk is just an inhibitor. I thought I was keeping myself safe, but realize there's nothing to be kept safe from!
"Just do it" is the key to this Session, it seems. It is very difficult, though, when my worry and negative anticipation is so convincing. I will try to circumvent my wall of thoughts. Like jumping into a swimming pool without thinking about it.