Posted: Mon Nov 10, 2008 4:34 am
My stress level has been through the roof the last 4weeks. I had been handling well up until just this past weekend. The kids and I have been sick, there has been stuff going on at home, pest control problem, one of my son was bit by the family dog, and my husband's company just had a big lay off. They are in real estate business which as we all know is not doing well due to the ecomony.
Just coming back from the pediatrician's office after taking 2 of my 3 kids to the doctor, when I start with the what if thoughts about an incident driving. A pedestrian went to cross in the cross walk and I had stopped a good distance back probably 2 car lenghts back, with traffic behind me.
When I realized I had stopped so far back, I began to inch forward with my foot on the brake. The whole time knowing I was in control and knowing everyone was safe in my car and the pedestrian. Even when the pedestrian was in the middle of the road, I still continued to inch forward because I was so far back.
Then the panicky feeling began to hit me, What the heck was I doing, what if I hit the gas and ran him over, what if the car sped forward because we had been inching forward. I began to beat myself beyond belief. I was an absolute wreak.
It didn't help that my kids were fighting with each other and I was feeling absoluetly frazzled over the whole thing.
I came home and called my husband who gave me the stern talk that I need to be able to rationalize this for myself and why aren't I using my skills.
This program has helped my anxiety tremendously. What I'm finding is that going through increased stress levels, I'm really good using my skills, but it's when things are beginning to level out, I beging searching for things to obessess and worry about.
My psychologist tells me that's when I should start telling myself that things are ok. That I have gone through the worst of it and that I need to be reassuring myself that this is a signal that things are resolving.
Maybe I just need to give myself permisson to have a pity party every once and awile, for just a few mintues, and then let it go. I think I'm being selfish and counterproductive to allow myself to do so. But by not acknowledging myself, even the negative junk, am I setting myself up for even more negativity and obessive thinking?
If anyone can relate or has a thought or suggestion. I would appreciate hearing from you. Thanks. Take care and God Bless.
Just coming back from the pediatrician's office after taking 2 of my 3 kids to the doctor, when I start with the what if thoughts about an incident driving. A pedestrian went to cross in the cross walk and I had stopped a good distance back probably 2 car lenghts back, with traffic behind me.
When I realized I had stopped so far back, I began to inch forward with my foot on the brake. The whole time knowing I was in control and knowing everyone was safe in my car and the pedestrian. Even when the pedestrian was in the middle of the road, I still continued to inch forward because I was so far back.
Then the panicky feeling began to hit me, What the heck was I doing, what if I hit the gas and ran him over, what if the car sped forward because we had been inching forward. I began to beat myself beyond belief. I was an absolute wreak.
It didn't help that my kids were fighting with each other and I was feeling absoluetly frazzled over the whole thing.
I came home and called my husband who gave me the stern talk that I need to be able to rationalize this for myself and why aren't I using my skills.
This program has helped my anxiety tremendously. What I'm finding is that going through increased stress levels, I'm really good using my skills, but it's when things are beginning to level out, I beging searching for things to obessess and worry about.
My psychologist tells me that's when I should start telling myself that things are ok. That I have gone through the worst of it and that I need to be reassuring myself that this is a signal that things are resolving.
Maybe I just need to give myself permisson to have a pity party every once and awile, for just a few mintues, and then let it go. I think I'm being selfish and counterproductive to allow myself to do so. But by not acknowledging myself, even the negative junk, am I setting myself up for even more negativity and obessive thinking?
If anyone can relate or has a thought or suggestion. I would appreciate hearing from you. Thanks. Take care and God Bless.
