Stress Center Peer Support

I'm on Session 10 of the program. I do have some scary thoughts like "Who Am I?" and "Will I hurt myself or someone else", but my worst habit is the constant checking-in. Always asking myself "How does everthing look?" My worst symptom of anxiety is the unreal/depersonalization episodes and that is why I have developed this bad habit of testing/checking-in to see if the unreal is back. Everytime I look out a window, drive, walk down a hallway at work. I can't distract myself enough to get beyond this.

Can anybody relate to this?

Mine may not quite be the same but I am finished with the program and I had to go on meds. Everyday for me it is a constant battle I guess. I feel like I am just surviving and not living. Every morning the minute I open my eyes I wonder how I will be how will my day go. I go to work constantly thinking about this. I just cant seem to shake it. The meds have helped but I always seem to have this nagging thought in the back of my mind like when is the other shoe gonna drop and I am right back where I started. I so try to stay positive but I find it hard some days and today is one of them. I was stalling going to work and for about three hours I just had this feeling of dread and fear that I could not shake and I am mad because I had 3 great days and I really thought the meds would help me to relax enough to start applying the coping skills. My co worker says I just need to be proud for my good days and not let this get me down and just try to remain positive so that is what I am going to do.