Blasphemous thoughts - please help!!

Southernman911 · Post by **Southernman911** » Mon Sep 08, 2008 5:17 am

I have been going through this since I was little boy. I have a crystal clear memory of walking to school constantly saying "I LOVE YOU GOD" while those crazy thoughts bounced around in my head. I can truly say I thought I was the ONLY person and this is my FIRST time telling someone. The fact of the matter is I have been dealing with this for awhile now and it really doesn't matter to me anymore mainly because I know I love and fear God and because I'm not alone anymore thanks to you all.

PHILLYKISER · Post by **PHILLYKISER** » Mon Sep 08, 2008 2:08 pm

I too have dealt with this all my life. I grew up in a somewhat strict Baptist atmosphere and I would constantly look for any little thing that I may or may not have done wrong. It seemed that I prayed for forgiveness every 5 minutes because I had a bad thought. This is just the anxiety and the devil trying to tear us down and make us useless as christians. I am still dealing with some of the thoughts that plague me but I know with a support group like this we will all get better.

Trin · Post by **Trin** » Fri Sep 12, 2008 3:35 pm

you SOUND EXACLTY LIKE ME TO THE POINT ITS KINDA CREEPY!

my mind used to say the exact same thing with the telling god "F--ck You"

what i told myself was that there were far worse people on earth than me and thats what youve gotta do.

there are murderers and rapists and terrorist running around with out a single though on their head. so if god really wanted to get angry and hit anyone with a bolt of lightning it would be them waaay before he came to some one like you who just couldnt control their ego dystonic thoughts

you arent bad at all and there are far bigger blasphemers than you

as far as it being the devil? i cant say, because it sounds like youre a very religious person (just like i was) who got an ego dystonic thought stuck in there head and it bothers you because its the exact opposite of what you really are

Christian83 · Post by **Christian83** » Sat Dec 13, 2008 11:04 pm

Hi, I am a Christian who lives in Hawaii. Lately I have been very troubled by blasphemous thoughts which made me feel so guilty and worthless. Even when I pray to God for help, my prayers are contaminated with evil thoughts because they would just cut in during my prayers. I feel hopeless and feel like I'm doomed. After I see all the advices and shared experiences the other Christians have on this site and some other websites I feel comforted. I encourage everyone to keep praying for everyone else who has this problem. Thank you so much for sharing guys!

Charlie Brown · Post by **Charlie Brown** » Sun Dec 14, 2008 8:04 am

Worrywoman,

I am so, so sorry you are having these blasphemous thoughts. My good friend had obsessive scary thoughts and his third worst thought was blasphemous. (The first two were aggressive obsessions.) The thought involved him performing a homosexual act with Christ. This is SOOOOO opposite of him. Firstly, he is devout heterosexual and Christian. Even if Jesus was physically on Earth like he was 2000 years ago, my friend had no such desire to do this act with our Lord.

Pure-O/OCD is a very paradoxical form of anxiety. We--meaning OCDers and non-OCDers--all get weird/unusual/scary thoughts. But become of physiological (brain chemistry) and personal (sensitive, feeling guilt easily) reasons, these type of thoughts will stick in an OCDers mind and play over and over like the proverbial broken record.

Also paradoxical about scary obsessions is the more we try not to think about them, the more they scare us.

Please consider these thoughts--as horrible as they are--as a symptom of a particular form of anxiety just like a chills are the symptom of a flu. God knows your heart. He won't condemn you because you have the chills (and thus a flu). He won't condemn you for the blasphemous thoughts because they are an anxiety symptom, not an intended insult to Him.

I would recommend staying plugged into this program. You might also want to read this article,
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You might want to consider therapy. Cognitive behaviorial therapy is the cornerstone for treating OCD. Here are some link to sites you can search by OCD and your state.

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Lastly, I offer this Scripture as prayer for you.

Daniel 4:19 (New International Version)

19 Then Daniel (also called Belteshazzar) was greatly perplexed for a time, and his thoughts terrified him. So the king said, "Belteshazzar, do not let the dream or its meaning alarm you."

And remember Lucinda (yeah, she's had them), my friend and others here with scary thoughts have never acted on the the thoughts.

gettingfree · Post by **gettingfree** » Sun Dec 14, 2008 10:47 am

There's also a book called The Secret Power of Speaking God's Word, by Joyce Meyer that is a collection of scriptures listed by category (fear, faith, trusting God, worry, etc.)that is awesome.

Worrywoman · Post by **Worrywoman** » Mon Dec 15, 2008 1:10 pm

I love you all in this forum and thank you for your continuous support. It's amazing how I started this thread in Nov 2005 and how the support continues to grow over the years. I pray for us all and I believe God is working through all of us to help one another in this community. Charlie Brown, you are so kind for providing much insight and caring. It's also uncanny that the "Peanuts" comic strip is my absolute favorite to read, never go a day without it!!! I feel Charlie Brown is like all of us, always asking why and trying to do the right thing in order to avoid feeling guilty. Again, many thanks everyone, we can survive this and WE WILL!!!!!

Charlie Brown · Post by **Charlie Brown** » Fri Dec 19, 2008 2:30 pm

From Worryman

Charlie Brown, you are so kind for providing much insight and caring. It's also uncanny that the "Peanuts" comic strip is my absolute favorite to read, never go a day without it!!!

When I joined the forum, I was going through really bad anxiety + health issues. I felt like, "Oh good grief."

Grace7850 · Post by **Grace7850** » Sat Dec 20, 2008 3:35 pm

Thank you so much for this website. I thought the same ting you did and thought i was doomed. I know now that im not and that God has given me this to let me see that I am under attack and He is fighting my battles. To GOD be the glory. So you believe it is OCD?

WaRinmymind · Post by **WaRinmymind** » Sat Dec 20, 2008 3:43 pm

i believe ive had thoughts like these...my new thing is i swear my husband is cheating even when hes here with me for 23 hours a day....im trying so hard
i feel like hes looking at every woman that walks by..i get this sick feeling in my stomach and obsess over it...i even imagined him with some...because i just realized i want him that bad that i didn't care...but i do care...and i know deep down inside he wouldn't do that its just the fact that my mind is shot and i cant help my thoughts...God knows you care...and he loves you more than anyone will EVER love you....when you think these bad thoughts...pray over and over and over and over........sleep...well i know how it is to obsess and go to sleep...waking up doing it ALL over again...i feel nuts though seriously...im getting medication soon so pray for me..ill def pray for you.