Posted: Mon Feb 01, 2010 2:49 pm
I think some others have posted that when you start the program, you become more aware of stuff. I'm in the first week, and the very first day I felt pretty good, after listening to the CD. As the week wore on, it's like some of my defense were crumbling.
Suddenly I'm aware of just about all of my self-destructive compulsions. I'm a compulsive spender, eater, smoker and I've refused to take care of myself emotionally or physically. As I became clearly aware of these problems, the depression felt like it had me in a stranglehold. So, that's where I'm at. I haven't given up, I'm listening to the CD, the relaxation CD, and I've worked in the workbook. This is tough.
Suddenly I'm aware of just about all of my self-destructive compulsions. I'm a compulsive spender, eater, smoker and I've refused to take care of myself emotionally or physically. As I became clearly aware of these problems, the depression felt like it had me in a stranglehold. So, that's where I'm at. I haven't given up, I'm listening to the CD, the relaxation CD, and I've worked in the workbook. This is tough.