Posted: Sun Jan 10, 2010 4:12 pm
I started having those fear of hurting others thoughts last October.
I've been reading a lot of information and have started this program.
I wanted some advice. I know one way to cope with accepting the thoughts are to avoid my compulsions to avoid violence...for example I avoid anything with a violent tone to it. Which is ridiculously difficult btw, im sure you all know.
I had wanted to go see Sherlock Holmes at the movies and now i think all i can handle is The Princess and the Frog.
and this just happened... my bf has the TV on in the living room. and he knows what im going through. but we live in a tiny apartment. so i can hear the TV going on about inmates and murderers and turns out hes watching some program about inmates. and of course im like "oh great." /sarcasm. and i think to myself "he shouldnt have to change his TV habits because of me, thats selfish of me" but i keep hearing violent stuff spewing out of the TV. and i finally go "ANDY!!" and hes like "What?" and im like "thanks a lot!" and hes like "well...i can watch something else." and i feel bad because thats ridiculous for us to have to live like that. but im too delicate right now to handle programs like that or i have nightmares and thoughts that make me sick to my stomach at times.
1. Does this sound familiar to anyone else?
2.Should i work on trying to watch violent movies to desensitize myself?
3. If you are going through/went through what i was going through with this fear of hurting others...did watching violent movies help you at all to overcome it somewhat???
I just dont feel ready for that yet. ive finally gotten to the point where im not having vomiting fits over the thought of hurting someone...i just dont think im ready for inmate TV.
I've been reading a lot of information and have started this program.
I wanted some advice. I know one way to cope with accepting the thoughts are to avoid my compulsions to avoid violence...for example I avoid anything with a violent tone to it. Which is ridiculously difficult btw, im sure you all know.
I had wanted to go see Sherlock Holmes at the movies and now i think all i can handle is The Princess and the Frog.
and this just happened... my bf has the TV on in the living room. and he knows what im going through. but we live in a tiny apartment. so i can hear the TV going on about inmates and murderers and turns out hes watching some program about inmates. and of course im like "oh great." /sarcasm. and i think to myself "he shouldnt have to change his TV habits because of me, thats selfish of me" but i keep hearing violent stuff spewing out of the TV. and i finally go "ANDY!!" and hes like "What?" and im like "thanks a lot!" and hes like "well...i can watch something else." and i feel bad because thats ridiculous for us to have to live like that. but im too delicate right now to handle programs like that or i have nightmares and thoughts that make me sick to my stomach at times.
1. Does this sound familiar to anyone else?
2.Should i work on trying to watch violent movies to desensitize myself?
3. If you are going through/went through what i was going through with this fear of hurting others...did watching violent movies help you at all to overcome it somewhat???
I just dont feel ready for that yet. ive finally gotten to the point where im not having vomiting fits over the thought of hurting someone...i just dont think im ready for inmate TV.