I just wanted to give everyone who is suffering from scary thoughts some hope and encouragement. You WILL get better! About one month ago I was in a really bad place emotionally and mentally. My anxiety was over the top, and was with me all day, every day. I was having obsessive scary thoughts about hurting my family and going crazy. I couldn't watch the news because everyone time I saw a story about someone doing something bad I would think "what if I did that?" I looked forward to sleeping each night because I knew the thoughts would stop, but I was terrified and filled with dread each morning about what the day would bring.
After about 3 weeks of feeling awful I decided that I needed to get help. I spoke with my psychiatrist and decided to go back on Lexapro. I started Lucinda's program and started seeing a therapist as well. That was about one month ago and I can honestly say the change that I feel within myself is amazing. My scary thoughts have diminished dramatically. I still have scary thoughts from time to time, but when they do come they just kind of pop into my mind and then leave. They don't scare me like they used to. Instead of waking up each morning with dread, I wake up excited about the day. I am going to work every day, going out with friends, and living my life. When I was severly anxious a couple of weeks ago, I felt like I was trapped in a darkness that I would never get out of. I want you all to know that I am getting better every day, and so will you! Also, don't be afraid or ashamed if you need to go back on your meds. I believe that Lexapro is a tremendous help to me and I am very thankful for it.
We can do it!!
