obsessive thoughts for 9 years please help
Posted: Sun Jun 09, 2013 10:33 pm
Hello i am a 25 year old woman and i been having obsessive thoughts for 9 years i've been told i had ocd by a few therapist but none of them have helped so i am doing this program in hopes that i will have my life back, the past 9 years have been hell i lost myself and who i was when i was 17 i developed hocd or ocd about being gay after watching a movie ever since that one moment i havent enjoyed anything in my life at all it consumed my entire life and also the fact the i never had a bf but always dreamed of having one but being rejected all the time plus i was already very quiet and stressed i felt horrible then this happened and i started to avoid being around anyone after i graduated i kinda just never wanted to leave the house was afraid to go to college and just became a hermit in the house all scared and alone it turned into social anxiety and still to this day i can't handle being around people and i feel like my life is passing me by and one ocd thought led to so many other anxieties i also have ocd about diseases dying and worrying about family members dying im afraid to listen to music in fear if i do something bad will happen also for about a year now i have an ocd about this guy who liked me but didnt like him and for some reason ocd latched on to that and makes me feel anytime i think of a guy i really like that he looks like the guy i dont like and makes me think i love this guy and want to be with him but i swear i dont and i have no interest in him i dont even talk to this guy or have any intentions to also i have ocd that brings up bad things i have done in the past and makes me worry that i should pay for those things and im sorry this is long and rambling but i just feel so hopeless i need advice therapy didnt help medication didnt help and i want to be free and have a life instead of fear holding me back any advice will be appreciated.