Obsessive thought is back... not sure why?
Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 8:08 pm
Hi everyone! I've been doing really great in the program. I've made a lot of progress and am really proud of myself. I am becoming more positve. I no longer over-analyze things and I am not a perfectionist anymore. I don't blow things out of proportion when I'm mad and I try to have more realistic expectations. I am on Lesson 12 now.
My panic attacks are gone and I haven't felt depressed in quite some time! Sometimes I will still feel a bit anxious but it's very easy to get over it now as compared to before the program.
I have been diagnosed with OCD, and my version of it is just obsessive, unwanted, scary thoughts. These thoughts have changed from time to time in my life (and they're not always there, either, just sometimes in my life) from me hurting someone else to leaving my family to killing myself.
I'm not sure why but for the past day or two I've just had the image of my wrist being slit in the back of my mind! I know it's silly because I know I'd never do that. But it is just there and I can't think it away! At least I'm not letting it scare me -- I say to myself, "This is just an OCD thought. It means nothing. End of story." But it still won't go away. I am trying to ask myself what could be going on in my life that is stressing me out that this thought is serving to distract me from, but I can't come up with it. I guess it could be that my husband is switching jobs pretty soon (but with the same company) or that we might be looking at a move in the next year or so, but I feel like I'm kind of grasping at straws here because these factors have been here for awhile and this has only started in the last two days. Maybe it could be because I am on my period?
Any insight would be helpful, thanks!
Also after I'm done the course I plan on doing a six-week OCD course, The OCD Workbook, with my therapist, before doing the program again for good measure .
My panic attacks are gone and I haven't felt depressed in quite some time! Sometimes I will still feel a bit anxious but it's very easy to get over it now as compared to before the program.
I have been diagnosed with OCD, and my version of it is just obsessive, unwanted, scary thoughts. These thoughts have changed from time to time in my life (and they're not always there, either, just sometimes in my life) from me hurting someone else to leaving my family to killing myself.
I'm not sure why but for the past day or two I've just had the image of my wrist being slit in the back of my mind! I know it's silly because I know I'd never do that. But it is just there and I can't think it away! At least I'm not letting it scare me -- I say to myself, "This is just an OCD thought. It means nothing. End of story." But it still won't go away. I am trying to ask myself what could be going on in my life that is stressing me out that this thought is serving to distract me from, but I can't come up with it. I guess it could be that my husband is switching jobs pretty soon (but with the same company) or that we might be looking at a move in the next year or so, but I feel like I'm kind of grasping at straws here because these factors have been here for awhile and this has only started in the last two days. Maybe it could be because I am on my period?
Any insight would be helpful, thanks!
Also after I'm done the course I plan on doing a six-week OCD course, The OCD Workbook, with my therapist, before doing the program again for good measure .