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Does anyone else feel like sometimes when they are really enjoying a moment all of a sudden OCD rears its ugly head and trys to ruin it. It seems like that happens sometimes when nothing else is bothering me(I am not avoiding anything). I will be in mid laugh and something will pop into my head and make me so upset. Mainly because its ruining moments I cant get back. Does anyone else get this? I feel like its because I have trained my brain to almost look for things to worry about so when I am enjoying my life its a signal for the ocd to jump in.

I am hoping with the program that I am able to enjoy my life(which I am happy with but ruining moments with my pure O) to its fullest without the interuptions.

However since I just started the program I am getting nervous that what if the program changes me to the point where it alters the life that I am happy with. I am afraid that it will make me change as a person (not just better the person i am but actaully make me soo differnt that I dont want the same things and I ruin my life that I love. Thats not how it works right. It will just allow me to enjoy the life I love without tainting the moments right? ANyone have any experience with this????????

Hi Clearsky-

Unforunately, I know how you feel. I went to a a very sweet wedding this past weekend and felt horrible the whole time. I felt like a was a stranger their even though my wife was with me. Very frustrating and difficult.

The thoughts and feelings can feel overwhelming but I think you need to feel them in order to get past them. You need to be able to have the thoughts, feel the feelings and accept it all. It is part of the process of healing. One thing I noticed is that when I have the feelings I don't look as weird as I feel. I don't think anyone else really even cares or notices...so just float along until they subside. Positive affirmations help if you do them long enough. They seem strange in the beginning but you'll get better with them.

Hang in there!

Thanks Gatorstanxious. I noticed that if I do the positive affirmations in my head the negative thought does pass. I do feel a little strange doing it but hey if it works I am in!!

Hi Clearsky,
Ive been reading your posts and really think you describe the ocd just how it feels! I have been struggeling with this since January this year, I have always had that obsessivness and bits of ocd but not like this! I am really starting to believe that its not the content of these thoughts but just how they make me feel, of course the content has to get to you enough to make you feel so much anxiety, but it is the anxiety that really needs to be addressed. I remember reading this on a website a few months ago but its only starting to sink in now. I tend to read the posts on the board everyday but dont post much, my biggest problem out of all this is that I now dont enjoy being home in the day on my own where as before I used to love it, and that is definatly because there is no one here to distract me from my ownself! Keep posting

Thanks Mrs. WOrry,

I feel the same way. If I was home during the day and had the house to myself I used to love it. The peace and quiet and you can just do whatever you want. Now I dread it. I cant wait for my fiance to come home. Your right, its because whenyour sitting home by yourself not doing anything thats when you just fester in your own thoughts. Have to keep busy(i know easier said then done).