Moving So Fast
Posted: Thu Jul 12, 2012 11:05 pm
Even if I were to be in a big open, peacful field with noone or nothing around me I would still feel like I am directing traffic in the heart of New York City. My thoughts race every moment of everyday. I think about mostly unnesesarry and terrifying things. Words, numbers, repetition. I can be still yet feel like my mind and body are racing through time. Like I am always so far ahead of myself. It gets physically painful living with OCD. Doing things over and over physically and mentally. It's hard to focus. I feel like I miss so much! Like before I realize the true beauty and/or emotion a moment holds it is hours from over. I'm always so busy focusing on counting or moving certain muscles or even trying to clear the scary visions from my head. Im 21 now and have been living this way since I was 8. I've found that certain things help. Any advice on good ways to slow down?