Violent images

[brandonmississippi]

Ok i see that a lot of ppl have this problem, but i'm still scared. I remember when they started happening. I was playing with my little dog and got so excited, the thought of hurting her entered my mind. Ever since then they have attacked me 24/7. I've been on risperdal, geodon, inderal, effexor, and several others. I'm very obsessive, and i can play the acts out in my head. It's sickening and makes me want to scream. But what scares me is the fact that i keep thinking about them. Having thoughts about my family really gets to me. Thinkin what if i killed them. Or how would i feel if they just died. I obsessivly try to imagine what it would feel like. I try to imagine life without them, and i can't. I stare at pictures thinking what if they died and i look at the picture, how would i feel. I'M DRIVING MYSELF CRAZY!!! I hope these are just obsessions. Man i feel so screwed up.