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Ok so i got pregnant before..and i was so terrible i couldnt take care of my child...i wanted what was best for him my mind would always say
YOU CANT DO IT YOU CANT DO IT..and i made the biggest mistake because i thought i had post partum and i signed custody i havent got to see my son in 2 years and he is 3 now...has this ever happened to anyone else?? am i a bad person for wanting what best for him??? and im married now..if i get pregnant how do i go by this???? should i feel bad cause i never get to see my kid...my exs mom got me to sign some papers ...etc...im stupid...but i might be pregnant now and im scared if i am...its not fair to my son....i dunno what to do

help?

I would say try making contact with him, you're not wrong for wanting whats best for him, but you are right that it's not fair to him. Try to be part of his life, even if it's just visits to start with. It's never too late to try.

Dearest War:
You are a great person because you wanted what was best for your child, and in the state of mind you were in, made the best decision possible. This is to be commended, not condemned.
In my own family, my sister got pregnant at 17 and ended up raising her children in an unhappy home. The end result? When she was 31, she abandoned her children to foster homes and families, and we all have heard stories about how bad those situations can be. Her childrens' stories are stereotypical of what happens, and it's very sad. At least your son isn't in a situation like that.
If you're pregnant now, consider it a blessing. By the tone of regret in your post, you've learned from your past mistakes. With that education, you're in a great place to be an incredible parent.
There are also legal channels you can go through to get custody of your son. If you opt not to do that, you can get visitation rights and have a part in his life. All is not lost, and please don't think it is.

thank you both very much