Posted: Wed Jan 16, 2008 1:59 am
Lately I've been having one random weird/scary thought after another. I have finished the program just 3 weeks ago and I am taking a break before going through it again. I can tell since I've stopped the program my old ways of thinking have snuck back in! So I'm just having a little rough time. And besides that I got a letter in the mail that my therapist is retiring end of the month.
I haven't gone a lot in the last year but it's just hard knowing the person who knows everything about me is leaving!
Among other weird thoughts I've had lately, one is driving me crazy right now. I was in meetings all day yesterday and the thought popped in my head with all the men in the room, that there were a lot of p_nis's in the room. I've obviously always known men have them, but I had never stopped and actually THOUGHT about it before like that. Now, the more I try not to think about it, the more it is there and it's driving me nuts. I just want to escape this stuff. Why do our minds even take us there? I just need some calming please, I feel preverted but I'm not trying to be!! i'm so stuck in this and with some of my other recent thoughts. thank you

Among other weird thoughts I've had lately, one is driving me crazy right now. I was in meetings all day yesterday and the thought popped in my head with all the men in the room, that there were a lot of p_nis's in the room. I've obviously always known men have them, but I had never stopped and actually THOUGHT about it before like that. Now, the more I try not to think about it, the more it is there and it's driving me nuts. I just want to escape this stuff. Why do our minds even take us there? I just need some calming please, I feel preverted but I'm not trying to be!! i'm so stuck in this and with some of my other recent thoughts. thank you