Posted: Tue Apr 06, 2010 3:35 am
Hello everyone
My name is Eddy, and I have been on these forums for a while now. I was diagnosed with Pure-O and have been seeing a specialist for my OCD for a couple of months now. I have made much strides but I have gotten stuck in a growth spurt.
The problem with these thoughts is not the thought, but the emotional attachment we give it which tends to be intense fear and anxiety.
So naturally the principle of the therapy an recovery is no to rid the thoughts because everybody has them. The issue is ridding the strong emotional response. If we can get rid of the irrational fear than the thoughts go away on their own.
Well I am having anxiety now about not having anxiety. I don't know if others on here can relate. My obsessions and I won't go into detail, but they are the common ones about hurting myself or hurting others, or going crazy.
Well for years I was so use to feeling anxiety and fear that I almost came to rely on that emotion to let me know that I would never act out on these thoughts.
4 months ago if i had a thought of hurting myself I would freak out and become an emotional mess. But now when I have a thought of hurting myself there is not much emotional response. That scares me lol. It's kind of silly and irrational and I know that. But Not feeling anxiety is making me anxious. I mean the therapy is working if the fear is diminishing but it is like I am not comfortable not feeling anxiety.
SO when I have the thoughts and I don't feel fear right away I fish for it. Or if it doesn't come right away I begin to obsess and wonder if all of a sudden I want to act on these thoughts. For so long I had relied on " well the fact that it scares you shows you you would never act on this." So now that the fear is diminishing it scares me lol. Can anyone else relate?
EddyJ
My name is Eddy, and I have been on these forums for a while now. I was diagnosed with Pure-O and have been seeing a specialist for my OCD for a couple of months now. I have made much strides but I have gotten stuck in a growth spurt.
The problem with these thoughts is not the thought, but the emotional attachment we give it which tends to be intense fear and anxiety.
So naturally the principle of the therapy an recovery is no to rid the thoughts because everybody has them. The issue is ridding the strong emotional response. If we can get rid of the irrational fear than the thoughts go away on their own.
Well I am having anxiety now about not having anxiety. I don't know if others on here can relate. My obsessions and I won't go into detail, but they are the common ones about hurting myself or hurting others, or going crazy.
Well for years I was so use to feeling anxiety and fear that I almost came to rely on that emotion to let me know that I would never act out on these thoughts.
4 months ago if i had a thought of hurting myself I would freak out and become an emotional mess. But now when I have a thought of hurting myself there is not much emotional response. That scares me lol. It's kind of silly and irrational and I know that. But Not feeling anxiety is making me anxious. I mean the therapy is working if the fear is diminishing but it is like I am not comfortable not feeling anxiety.
SO when I have the thoughts and I don't feel fear right away I fish for it. Or if it doesn't come right away I begin to obsess and wonder if all of a sudden I want to act on these thoughts. For so long I had relied on " well the fact that it scares you shows you you would never act on this." So now that the fear is diminishing it scares me lol. Can anyone else relate?
EddyJ