Posted: Wed Jan 02, 2008 5:17 am
Hi, I wanted to ask everyone here someting.
I started to get what I think is OCD as my anxiety worsened. I think it is my warped way of trying to control something, when everytihg seems out of control.
I have never been diagnosed though, but I started to count sporadically at first it was always by 3's thinking 3 had some power at controlling my anxiety. Now i know this just made it worse.
I did my own little experiment since this is so annoying and slows me down. I really wanted to know how much I could change or was this something I needed med's for. So when I felt the need to count I changed the # to 4. Of course it made me anxious because my irrational brain told me 3's did something special but after about 3 weeks I was counting by 4 without realizing it and not thinking about the 3. Odd and interesting so I did it again and changed the # to 8, again the same thing in a few weeks I was counting by 8. This tells me all this is, for me anyway, is a bad habit. I figure I am going to try for a mo. to eliminate all counting and any other OCD rituals and thoughts ( i have learned to recognize them fairly well because I know they are irrational)I started and it is so hard to ignore them and continue to do what i was ,my anxiety is high because I believe in my irrational mind they do something even though I can sit there and say this is not right. I believe if I can get through a few weeks they will be considerably less or the urge will be less. I am realizing anxiety too is just a habit along with my agoraphobia, the only way through is through the fear. Eventually new habits will form.
Just wondering if anyone else has tried this?
I started to get what I think is OCD as my anxiety worsened. I think it is my warped way of trying to control something, when everytihg seems out of control.
I have never been diagnosed though, but I started to count sporadically at first it was always by 3's thinking 3 had some power at controlling my anxiety. Now i know this just made it worse.
I did my own little experiment since this is so annoying and slows me down. I really wanted to know how much I could change or was this something I needed med's for. So when I felt the need to count I changed the # to 4. Of course it made me anxious because my irrational brain told me 3's did something special but after about 3 weeks I was counting by 4 without realizing it and not thinking about the 3. Odd and interesting so I did it again and changed the # to 8, again the same thing in a few weeks I was counting by 8. This tells me all this is, for me anyway, is a bad habit. I figure I am going to try for a mo. to eliminate all counting and any other OCD rituals and thoughts ( i have learned to recognize them fairly well because I know they are irrational)I started and it is so hard to ignore them and continue to do what i was ,my anxiety is high because I believe in my irrational mind they do something even though I can sit there and say this is not right. I believe if I can get through a few weeks they will be considerably less or the urge will be less. I am realizing anxiety too is just a habit along with my agoraphobia, the only way through is through the fear. Eventually new habits will form.
Just wondering if anyone else has tried this?