This is going to be a challenge -
Posted: Mon Aug 08, 2011 12:19 pm
Can't believe I'm already at Week 7. Scary, but also exciting. I just keep moving ahead each week, even if I don't feel I totally "got" the previous lesson. I know that it all works together and to just keep at it every day.
Assertive Behavior is going to be a challenge for me. It is so hard to not worry about what someone else is going to think about me. I really like that the program gives you several examples of what to say in certain situations. Very helpful. Part of me feels selfish when I say or do something that I feel may hurt the other person, even if they're already being hurtful to me. I am going to work really hard on this and know that in time it will get easier.
Remember, remember, remember....I am worth it. That's my mantra for the day.
Also, I have decided to go of my anti-anxiety medication (buspirone/buspar). Today is my first day of lowering the dose from 20mg /day to 15mg/day. I will go down 5mg a week until I'm done. Should take 3 weeks to a month. I've only been on the med for just over 2 months, and I hate it. I need to know that I am the one making myself better....not the medication. I am really scared about this because I started the medication about the same time as this program and have this voice in my head telling me I can't do it. I have a feeling I'll be using a lot of the positive self talk the next few weeks.
Anyone else who went off Bupirone? What can I expect? I am doing okay today...a little woozy in the head and a bit of a headache.
Thanks for letting me get all this out. Blessing to all.....Kris
Assertive Behavior is going to be a challenge for me. It is so hard to not worry about what someone else is going to think about me. I really like that the program gives you several examples of what to say in certain situations. Very helpful. Part of me feels selfish when I say or do something that I feel may hurt the other person, even if they're already being hurtful to me. I am going to work really hard on this and know that in time it will get easier.
Remember, remember, remember....I am worth it. That's my mantra for the day.
Also, I have decided to go of my anti-anxiety medication (buspirone/buspar). Today is my first day of lowering the dose from 20mg /day to 15mg/day. I will go down 5mg a week until I'm done. Should take 3 weeks to a month. I've only been on the med for just over 2 months, and I hate it. I need to know that I am the one making myself better....not the medication. I am really scared about this because I started the medication about the same time as this program and have this voice in my head telling me I can't do it. I have a feeling I'll be using a lot of the positive self talk the next few weeks.
Anyone else who went off Bupirone? What can I expect? I am doing okay today...a little woozy in the head and a bit of a headache.
Thanks for letting me get all this out. Blessing to all.....Kris