Posted: Tue Jan 01, 2008 8:18 pm
Hi guys and gals. I actually bought the tapes for anxiety, etc back in 2003, started using them for a while, actually Im much better now than I was..although Im still dealing with some issues that are boggling me. I in this past year have fallen in love with someone, a close friend of my best friend. He is wonderful. We have been talking for over a year, and we keep getting closer and closer. I have issues about opening up and with fear. I fear constantly. I love him deeply, and he is constantly reassuring me he loves me ..the bad and the good. I can't let go of this fear that im not perfect enough, no matter how many times he tells me how gorgeous I am, I fear im ugly, that he will be disgusted.I have suffered from anxiety for a while, and because of that have not driven a car since last year, I am working soon on getting my licence. I fear that he will look at all these things about me and ..well...not feel the same way about me. Why can't I be as open as him..as fearless and as sure about myself ...the way he's sure about me?? What is wrong with me?? I don't see in me what he sees in me, and im afraid he thinks im so great that he will be dissapointed in the long run. What can I do?? He deserves someone great, He is truly a good man, and I want to be good.
