Posted: Sat Feb 02, 2008 3:24 pm
Hi -
It's funny how so often when we start a new session, I get an opportunity to practice it in real life. The session on anger has really been eye-opening for me and has shown me I've harbored more anger than I ever realized, probably going back to childhood. I'm not sure how to process it all.
I also notice that I can be easily irritated and then have a hard time "turning it off." In fact, during the lesson on negative thinking, I discovered that, embassassingly, the vast majority of my negative thoughts were about others and not myself! I beat myself up plenty, but was shocked at how much time I waste being irritated with others or dwelling on people who get on my nerves. It's very hard to shut off the thoughts. I am convinced my anger/irritation is doing me physical harm as I have lots of headaches and have had some blood pressure concerns recently despite an otherwise healthy lifestyle. I walk around with my heart beating too hard and that "fight or flight" feeling much too much of the time and am only becoming aware of it since I started the program. Can anybody relate to this, and how do you keep those feelings of irritation at bay? I'm struggling to get the log out of my own eye before I worry about the speck in someone else's. Any thoughts?
It's funny how so often when we start a new session, I get an opportunity to practice it in real life. The session on anger has really been eye-opening for me and has shown me I've harbored more anger than I ever realized, probably going back to childhood. I'm not sure how to process it all.
I also notice that I can be easily irritated and then have a hard time "turning it off." In fact, during the lesson on negative thinking, I discovered that, embassassingly, the vast majority of my negative thoughts were about others and not myself! I beat myself up plenty, but was shocked at how much time I waste being irritated with others or dwelling on people who get on my nerves. It's very hard to shut off the thoughts. I am convinced my anger/irritation is doing me physical harm as I have lots of headaches and have had some blood pressure concerns recently despite an otherwise healthy lifestyle. I walk around with my heart beating too hard and that "fight or flight" feeling much too much of the time and am only becoming aware of it since I started the program. Can anybody relate to this, and how do you keep those feelings of irritation at bay? I'm struggling to get the log out of my own eye before I worry about the speck in someone else's. Any thoughts?