Stress Center Peer Support

I am 38 yrs old and depression has taken over my life:( 6 yrs ago I had major surgery and it changed my life. I fell into deep depression, left my husband and 2 boys that I love so very much and never would have imagined I could ever do such a thing. My children were my world, I lived every minute of my life for them. I ended up leaving them and found a new man in my life who I know is very bad for me. He has a lot of issues and I know I should leave but I CAN'T. I have completely seperated myself from my children and I cry about this so much but when I am with them I don't feel like their mom. Why??? I have tried church but I cry through the entire thing and that gets embarrasing so I quit going. WHAT DO I DO????

What do you do??? You pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again. Come on, you can do it. Get this program and do it. If you don't have it or don't have the money to get it then go thru the forums starting with lesson 1 till the end. You will get better IF you really want to.

Are you on any anti-depressants? If not you may need to see a Dr. and get something to help you stay focused on the program and the priorities of your life.

You mentioned going to church and crying. So what??? Nobody will maybe even notice and if they do just say you're dealing with things right now and ask them to pray. What can it hurt? This is a time you need God more than ever.

If you know this man is bad for you, why can't you leave??? There's no such word as can't. We all have choices. Everyone makes good choices and everyone makes bad ones. Believe me, I've had my share and still make many mistakes. The point is, don't look at the mistakes as something bad but as learning experiences. If you had it to do over again would you still leave your husband and boys? It's never to late to say you're sorry,that you want to change and you'd like to come back or at least have a better relationship with them. You don't feel like their mom, why?, you said. Maybe because you're listening to the voice of the enemy, the condemnation voice. God doesn't condemn you. Don't condemn yourself. Come on here for support and don't forget to do your homework. Let us know how you're doing. Feel free to PM me anytime if you want.

Barb