I need some hope
I need some hope
I am 24 years old and just graduated from college. I have struggled with depression all my life and have tried everything I can think of and everything my family can think of. It started out with anxiety which i have also had all my life. I had OCD when I was younger and it controlled my life. My birthday was last week and I was to anxious and sad to do anything. These three things have controlled my life. I have missed out on so many things and now my depression is my life. I cry all the time and I am so sick of living this way. I am afraid to drive, to leave the house, i never see my friends, I am to afraid to get a job. I want to be happy and love my life and love who I am but I hate waking up in the morning.
Yesterday was a bad day. I had therapy yesterday and I told my therapist I can't keep living like this anymore. She told me to go to an inpatient hospital. I came home, called the place, and they said they had a bed. They did the over the phone evaluation and the doctor said the outpatient program would be better for me. Its 4 weeks to 6 weeks but I have to wait 2 weeks. I don't even know if I can't with that long. I don't know what to do anymore. I have been really struggling for 8 months and no one should have to live like this.
I just want hope and someone to talk to.
P.S. I listen to the CD's at night and they are currently my "safe place".
Yesterday was a bad day. I had therapy yesterday and I told my therapist I can't keep living like this anymore. She told me to go to an inpatient hospital. I came home, called the place, and they said they had a bed. They did the over the phone evaluation and the doctor said the outpatient program would be better for me. Its 4 weeks to 6 weeks but I have to wait 2 weeks. I don't even know if I can't with that long. I don't know what to do anymore. I have been really struggling for 8 months and no one should have to live like this.
I just want hope and someone to talk to.
P.S. I listen to the CD's at night and they are currently my "safe place".
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Re: I need some hope
Hi Taylor,
This is Coach Chris from the coaching team here at stresscenter.com. Thank you for writing and reaching out. May I ask how long you have had the program and how are you doing practicing the 6 steps from lesson 2 along with turning negatives to positives?
I look forward to your reply.
Coach Chris
coachchris@stresscenter.com
This is Coach Chris from the coaching team here at stresscenter.com. Thank you for writing and reaching out. May I ask how long you have had the program and how are you doing practicing the 6 steps from lesson 2 along with turning negatives to positives?
I look forward to your reply.
Coach Chris
coachchris@stresscenter.com
Coach Chris
coachchris@stresscenter.com
coachchris@stresscenter.com
Re: I need some hope
Hello Coach Chris,
My aunt bout the program for me about 4 months ago. I listened to the 1-9 CDs and then stopped because I wasn't feeling better. I don't think they were helping because i wasn't listening to each CD multiple times a week faithfully. Now I have been listening to them when I go to bed I am only on the third week and doing the journal and reading the journal. I bought the book Panic to Power and it is coming in the mail so I am looking forward to reading that.
I realized that it is very difficult for me to do positive self talk. I have been trying very hard to retrain my brain to think differently about myself but it is very hard for me. I have very low self-esteem because of how I was brought up. Right now I am job searching and out of school because I graduated in December so I don't have a 9-5 job and it is really hard for me to feel good about myself right now. I use to play basketball in college and start since freshman year....go out with friends...have class...big projects....two jobs during the summer. Now I just don't feel needed. The anxiety is turning into really bad depression and I just don't know what else to do. Every minute is a struggle for me.
P.S. Thank you for getting back to me!
My aunt bout the program for me about 4 months ago. I listened to the 1-9 CDs and then stopped because I wasn't feeling better. I don't think they were helping because i wasn't listening to each CD multiple times a week faithfully. Now I have been listening to them when I go to bed I am only on the third week and doing the journal and reading the journal. I bought the book Panic to Power and it is coming in the mail so I am looking forward to reading that.
I realized that it is very difficult for me to do positive self talk. I have been trying very hard to retrain my brain to think differently about myself but it is very hard for me. I have very low self-esteem because of how I was brought up. Right now I am job searching and out of school because I graduated in December so I don't have a 9-5 job and it is really hard for me to feel good about myself right now. I use to play basketball in college and start since freshman year....go out with friends...have class...big projects....two jobs during the summer. Now I just don't feel needed. The anxiety is turning into really bad depression and I just don't know what else to do. Every minute is a struggle for me.
P.S. Thank you for getting back to me!
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Re: I need some hope
Hi Again Taylor,
Do you have the guidebook that goes along with the program? You mentioned you're doing the journal and reading it so I wasn't sure if that was the guidebook.
It's great to hear you understand your low self-esteem struggle. I would write out 10 things that make you valuable and are your strengths. Read through this list daily and continue to celebrate your successes with the program. I would also try and to get involved with a recreational basketball league at your local ymca or community center. Be patient with yourself as you are learning to be a positive, present moment thinker. It takes time and patient practice. It really helped me to talk to myself like I would a good friend.
Wishing you well in the job hunt too!
Coach Chris
Do you have the guidebook that goes along with the program? You mentioned you're doing the journal and reading it so I wasn't sure if that was the guidebook.
It's great to hear you understand your low self-esteem struggle. I would write out 10 things that make you valuable and are your strengths. Read through this list daily and continue to celebrate your successes with the program. I would also try and to get involved with a recreational basketball league at your local ymca or community center. Be patient with yourself as you are learning to be a positive, present moment thinker. It takes time and patient practice. It really helped me to talk to myself like I would a good friend.
Wishing you well in the job hunt too!
Coach Chris
Coach Chris
coachchris@stresscenter.com
coachchris@stresscenter.com
Re: I need some hope
Hi Taylor,
Couldn't help but respond to your post because I too have experienced the symptoms of anxiety and depression of which you described thus I completely identify with how you feel. With the help of this program and a very talented therapist I did however successfully eliminate the anxiety and depression associated with OCD. As per "depression is my life..". know that the definition of depression is simply anger/frustration turned inward. We think ourselves into anxiety and depression and become frustrated because we lack the knowledge base and coping skills. Our confidence takes a hit which affects our ability to function i.e. "afraid to leave the house...afraid to drive...see my friends...afraid to get a job". I have successfully helped many individuals help themselves re-establish their confidence and through my journey of recovery I have accumulated a lot of resources to share. Feel free to e-mail me anytime through this site or directly at mpscully621@gmail.com for support. You are a success happening. God bless.
Couldn't help but respond to your post because I too have experienced the symptoms of anxiety and depression of which you described thus I completely identify with how you feel. With the help of this program and a very talented therapist I did however successfully eliminate the anxiety and depression associated with OCD. As per "depression is my life..". know that the definition of depression is simply anger/frustration turned inward. We think ourselves into anxiety and depression and become frustrated because we lack the knowledge base and coping skills. Our confidence takes a hit which affects our ability to function i.e. "afraid to leave the house...afraid to drive...see my friends...afraid to get a job". I have successfully helped many individuals help themselves re-establish their confidence and through my journey of recovery I have accumulated a lot of resources to share. Feel free to e-mail me anytime through this site or directly at mpscully621@gmail.com for support. You are a success happening. God bless.
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Re: I need some hope
Hi Taylor,
I have recently been added to this Stress Center Peer Support group, and I was reading through the blogs and came across yours. I have suffered from depression in the past and currently. This program has really helped me as well as other positive support groups. I wanted to check in to see how you were doing and if you did the program at the inhome hospital? I would love to hear how you are doing, I will pray for you!
- Kelsey
I have recently been added to this Stress Center Peer Support group, and I was reading through the blogs and came across yours. I have suffered from depression in the past and currently. This program has really helped me as well as other positive support groups. I wanted to check in to see how you were doing and if you did the program at the inhome hospital? I would love to hear how you are doing, I will pray for you!
- Kelsey
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Hello Kelsey,
I am just wondering if you are still on this website. I feel like no one is ever on the forum or participates really. Just wondering if you would care to talk.
Taylor
I am just wondering if you are still on this website. I feel like no one is ever on the forum or participates really. Just wondering if you would care to talk.
Taylor
Re: I need some hope
HI Taylor,
How are you?
Feel free to email me if you need anything. coachchris@stresscenter.com
The forums are slow but we continue to get new people everyday so keep trying to reach out.
We need each other:)
How are you?
Feel free to email me if you need anything. coachchris@stresscenter.com
The forums are slow but we continue to get new people everyday so keep trying to reach out.
We need each other:)
Re: I need some hope
Hello Coach Chris,
I am trying to reach out to people but i am not getting anything back. I just am struggling with anxiety and depression and i just feel very stuck and scared. I am trying the program for a second time and I am still not doing good. Anxiety and depression currently control my life. I would love some feedback or encouragement. Right now i really need that....
Thank you,
Taylor
I am trying to reach out to people but i am not getting anything back. I just am struggling with anxiety and depression and i just feel very stuck and scared. I am trying the program for a second time and I am still not doing good. Anxiety and depression currently control my life. I would love some feedback or encouragement. Right now i really need that....
Thank you,
Taylor
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Also I have been trying to get in touch with Coach 21?