What if i get better.
Posted: Tue Jan 15, 2013 8:33 pm
Hi, I am 35, i have had anxiety and depression since i was a baby/ child. Of course i never knew what it was. But It got worse around puberty. And i've been on disability for many years... it's stolen my whole life from me. I just got this program and am beginning to start it. Literally my whole life has been taking me because of it. And people, most family members always sort of hate me, and are angry at me that i don't work and didn't work much. They don't understand. But my question is. let's say this works and i'm suddenly cured or get better. i'm worried...what the hell will i do? suddenly get better and move on and live a normal life? How the heck would i move on after losing half my life? that ALONE gives me anxiety. I just don't feel i'll ever be able to work. It has taken me years just to be OK and barely life day to day NOT having to work.. i can't imagine ever actually having to do something more overwhelming that what i do on a daily basis which isn't much compared to you people who work everyday with a family and 3 kids. UGH.. Even back when i used to work i used to have blackouts and stuff and had to get neurologist tests etc always finding nothing. i just feel it's too late for me to ever get a normal life back..it'd be too surreal and strange for me. DO you think i could recover somewhat from this program but still not work but be ok enough to live the life i do now not working without anxiety and depression? even that would be a step up for me..lol