First time post- Overthinking/Racing Thoughts
Posted: Tue Jan 01, 2013 10:34 pm
Hi everyone! This is my first post on the site. Ive been considering posting for a while but kind of as a 2013 resolution I wanted to take every chance to make myself feel better. Srry if this is long so Ill try not to write an essay. I am 23 years old. Back in middle school about 5th-8th grade I was bullyed and made fun of alot and to this day I really dont know why. Before that I was a pretty outgoing kid and would talk to anyone, now Im pretty quiet and have few good friends and I really struggle to make conversation with strangers. Tough for me to make new friends. I have had a few best friends in my life that didnt turn out so well so I really havent had that one friend I could go to or talk about anything. Even my parents I havent been able to talk with cause they cant take anything seriously. So really Ive gone most of my life without someone to talk out feeling with, leaving myself to digest thoughts and try to work out problems with myself. Ive always been a curious person and wanting to know everything and I think thats one of the things that has escalated my racing thoughts. Started back in high school and last few years its been getting worse. It can be anything from a music quote to something someone says to me where the line just repeats over and over in my head. Sometimes days at a time and its tough for me to control it. Even listening to the radio today hearing a catchy tune it gets stuck in my head. It gets really bad though when its something more emotionally attached. Like a g/f breaking up and thinking out something she said or just something thats just more emotionally meaningful. Since I still dont really have anyone to talk it out with, thought I would share my thoughts on here. Hopefully get some help if any of you have had the same problems and what you did to help. I did start some medication a few months back and it helped for a while but it just seems like my mind overpowers it. Thanks for any replys and I look forward to taking part in more conversations on this site!