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Anxiety is my primary disorder - and because of the OCD and perfectionism I exhaust myself with my own thinking to the point of being so overwhelmed I swing to the opposite extreme and get depressed like I am right now.

I want to do everything all at once, and when I can't follow through, I eventually crash. I'm just about there tonight, once again.

So sick of this wild pendulum swing between anxiety & depression. Fed up. I want to get on a plane and disappear on an island somewhere and never return to civilization! I'm tired, I give up, I want to run away and avoid everything. Why can't a little bit at a time just be enough for me? Why can't I have some patience and be okay with one step at a time?

It's okay,

First, I want to welcome you to the stress center. I think you are miles ahead of the problem. With a slight exception, running from the problem is impossible. In the first paragraph of your post you fully understand the source of your problem:

I exhaust myself with my own thinking to the point of being so overwhelmed I swing to the opposite extreme and get depressed like I am right now.

The best thing you can do is confront your problem. You already understand that you are the source of all the thinking that makes you feel as though you are losing it. You are not losing it. You control your mind and your thoughts. It is clear to me you understand that. Next, stop beating yourself up and go easy on yourself. Yes! be kind to yourself !! It starts with you and you can put an end to the swings that make you crash.

If you have gotten the program and have learned the breathing exercises; start there. If you have faith, take hold of a Bible and prayer for divine guidance before you open the book. If you have no faith in God, then you must have some faith in your self sufficiency, sooner or later you will find out that God is real and He is the one that inspires you to persevere. Sorry, if you don't believe it.

The universes and all that is in it were created. Here's a thought, what ever comes of disorder remains in disorder. I am speaking scientifically here. Look upon the universe and all that is in it, and the more you study it the more you see order. If you still want to believe in big bang; you have to think what sort of bang could have set the universe in the order and balance that it appears to have and is continually being discovered? Perhaps a calculated bang? Calculated by who? You see the more inquires that are conducted by science in their attempt to disprove God, the more they find out what I just took you through. God is! Is. 66:1 and Acts 7:49

It's okay, believe me it is going to be okay. Trust me. The longest journey begins with the first step. If you want to find out more, the answer is not in 1,000 jars of medication, as they only serve to conceal the problems or make them worse. It begins with you, it should be clear to you that you can not continue without God's help and guidance.

I will pray for you and for God to grant you His peace so that you may begin to live the life of joy that God intends for you, and usher you into the life of abundant living in and through Him. You will realize that He is real, He cares for all of His creation and that includes you, and when you do your fears, and all your mountains will disappear or at least not seem to be as big a deal as you empowered them to be.

I hope that you are ready to discuss more. May God bless you with His love, mercy, forgiveness, grace and peace; according to His riches and His will, In Jesus name I pray. Amen!

Hello OKay, I am in agreement with Gman, when he says you acknowledging your problem is the first step. I feel for you. I have a mild case of OCD, so I talk to myself constantly to stop. I cannot walk pass a piece of trash or use a public restroom without cleaning it first. I clean the table and chairs in restaurants, grab door nobs with my clothes, and so on. But when I find that I am overwhelmed and stressing, I say to myself "STOP". I literally stop in my tracks and think about what I am doing. No one is going to die and nothing is going to happen to me if I leave a dish in the sink.
Just remember this is an ongoing process that will not change over night. Except who you are and work on making changes. Best Wishes and Don't Give UP!!!!

Thank you Celyon and Gman, I truly appreciate your help.

Actually, I did the relaxation CD earlier, and then went to bed to take a nap because I'm just out of commission today. My mind was flooded with bad thoughts and memories, then I started crying. Before I came to read your post, I was in bed and I turned to a Bible book I have with passages arranged by topic for your need, and the page I turned to was on "God's Faithfulness" - I read some if it and it did help. I know I am going to need God's help to get through this. After that, I had heard Sarah M's song "Angel" and I just let it comfort me.

Gman thanks for pointing that out, how I am the one in control of my own thoughts, I am the source of them. That's a hard thing to realize on one's own. I am not far enough into the program to quite grasp this fully yet, but I'll try.

Hi It's okay,

If there is anything I can do to help you, whether in prayer or whatever. I am here for you, if you would like to pm I am there. My problem, I am getting a little older and I am broken down cracked pot for the Lord, and I usually crash early otherwise I am a ball of fire from 3 AM till about 7 PM

Here's an on line resource that is excellent for key word bible searches, passage searches, bible studies, etc.

http://www.biblegateway.com/pa...im%201:7;&version=9;

Here's one of my favorite albums full play:

http://www.stevencurtischapman...radio/speechless.htm

If you click on the go back to the music page, you'll have access to all of His albums. Please listen to the one linked completely, and if you play it in your background, it may help to distract you a bit from the things that upset and concern you. This library is awesome, I hope you avail yourself of this powerful music ministry.

I am so glad that I able to help if even in a small way. Little brother I have been where you are, maybe not with the same disorders, but in a deep depression since I was 11, and I am now near 60- a couple of months. The Lord has helped me overcome my depression. Like I said, I am here to fellowship, study, encourage, comfort and cheer you on. Praise God, I am heal and the it was the Lord that made me whole!!!

Keep in touch. You are going to be fine, and you will get better with each passing day.

I pray that God Bless you with His love, mercy, forgiveness, grace, peace and security, according to His riches in heaven, His perfect will, and the joy it gives Him; by the blood and name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen and Amen!!!

ItsOkayThisIsGood

I read this post, and it could have been me writing it. One of my problems, is the opposite of you, well, kind of.
I can clean my house all day long and at the end of the day, it looks like I have done nothing.
It's that way with alot of things that I have started. I dart from one thing to another, back to the first, get started in another room, and so the whole day goes.
I am exhausted, my other half comes home and it looks like I have done absolutely nothing, which then upsets me and so on.
I can soooo relate and I am soooo excited because after years of seeing the infomercial, I finally did it!
I love the following posts after yours and there is some awesome advice in there! So, by you posting- it helped many, including me!
Sometimes I feel like I need a step by step book to get ONE thing done, so yes, you see, how I relate!
I just started the program, but we speak the same language...if you need some encouragement, PM me!