Re: How Badly has Depression affected or screwed up your Lif
Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2014 9:58 pm
Mark:
Thanks for sharing !
As most of us depressed folks know, we ALL live in the past.
I do this all of the time...I live in the past. I am always looking
back on what WAS. Instead I should be looking at what IS.
Living in the moment is SO crucial to us.
I used to celebrate
bad "anniversaries" for the longest time.... the day I lost
my job, the day I had my major breakdown, the day my
beloved cat died, the day my dad died, the day that I really
almost could have taken my own life ( and many more ).
I no longer celebrate bad "anniversaries".
I also have the habit of looking back at things I once had but no longer do.
Like: my health, the ability to travel, having a real job,
having friends at work, having independence and
confidence, being able to read a lot
of books, enjoying movies at the movie theatres,
being able to experience joy, and having purpose and
dignity. Yes, I was one of those people that put all
of their eggs in one basket. I put all of my eggs into my job.
My job was the source of all of my purpose and dignity.
I was very productive and very reliable and responsible.
Unfortunately when I put all of my eggs in one basket I set myself up for disaster.
When I lost that job, I no longer had purpose and dignity.
My world was upside down.
A person should never rely on external things to shape who they are,
this should come from within ourselves. This is all new to me.
I have never done it before. I am 53 years old and sometimes I feel
that I am too old to learn new things.
I have a lot less brain cells than I did 30 years ago.
LyndaLu
Thanks for sharing !
As most of us depressed folks know, we ALL live in the past.
I do this all of the time...I live in the past. I am always looking
back on what WAS. Instead I should be looking at what IS.
Living in the moment is SO crucial to us.
I used to celebrate
bad "anniversaries" for the longest time.... the day I lost
my job, the day I had my major breakdown, the day my
beloved cat died, the day my dad died, the day that I really
almost could have taken my own life ( and many more ).
I no longer celebrate bad "anniversaries".
I also have the habit of looking back at things I once had but no longer do.
Like: my health, the ability to travel, having a real job,
having friends at work, having independence and
confidence, being able to read a lot
of books, enjoying movies at the movie theatres,
being able to experience joy, and having purpose and
dignity. Yes, I was one of those people that put all
of their eggs in one basket. I put all of my eggs into my job.
My job was the source of all of my purpose and dignity.
I was very productive and very reliable and responsible.
Unfortunately when I put all of my eggs in one basket I set myself up for disaster.
When I lost that job, I no longer had purpose and dignity.
My world was upside down.
A person should never rely on external things to shape who they are,
this should come from within ourselves. This is all new to me.
I have never done it before. I am 53 years old and sometimes I feel
that I am too old to learn new things.
I have a lot less brain cells than I did 30 years ago.
LyndaLu