low self esteem

[Ronnie 1981]

i always care what people r gonna think of me. im always afraid to be judged on the way i look the way i dress the way i talk everything its driving me crazy and i obsess about this stuff.that it makes me not want to gout and face people and then when these thoughts come up in public when i feel like i being judged it feels so real and then i get really really angry and really depressed that i want to hurt myself or others. am i crazy?how do i stop this vicious cycle?