Posted: Mon Jan 17, 2011 8:01 pm
Hi, my name is Bri and I've just found this community. I'm a teenage girl, feeling like I'm 90 years old.
Basically, I found a person who encouraged my light to shine through, and to find my true happiness. We became extremely close, and he was my rock. As these stories go, we were very deeply in love and unfortunately, he took on a lot of my emotional baggage. He saw me at my very lowest and was forced to lie to me and call the police in order to prevent me from committing suicide.
Long story short, there is so much emotional depth and day's worth of stories that I can't explain it all. But he left me because he couldn't deal with the heaviness that is always with me. For almost a year, I have been crying nightly and obsessively wishing that I could go back and deal with the problems with myself, because I feel so much guilt that I lost my first love and an intense love because I couldn't cope with it myself. I put too much of a burden on him and lost my entire world. Nothing makes me happy anymore because I've lost my will to get out of bed.
I need help. And have no idea where to start.
Basically, I found a person who encouraged my light to shine through, and to find my true happiness. We became extremely close, and he was my rock. As these stories go, we were very deeply in love and unfortunately, he took on a lot of my emotional baggage. He saw me at my very lowest and was forced to lie to me and call the police in order to prevent me from committing suicide.
Long story short, there is so much emotional depth and day's worth of stories that I can't explain it all. But he left me because he couldn't deal with the heaviness that is always with me. For almost a year, I have been crying nightly and obsessively wishing that I could go back and deal with the problems with myself, because I feel so much guilt that I lost my first love and an intense love because I couldn't cope with it myself. I put too much of a burden on him and lost my entire world. Nothing makes me happy anymore because I've lost my will to get out of bed.
I need help. And have no idea where to start.
Welcome! I agree with SoWhatif, make yourself get out of bed and eat something. See if you can drink some milk and if possible have an egg or tuna fish. That is what keeps me going right now.