low self esteem,anxiety,and depression

[Ronnie 1981]

hey everyone im new to this i have paranoia anxiety, and depression. whenever i go out with my guy friends or even the guys in my family i always have in my mind that any girls including girls that r family and relatives r thinking that they're more attractive than me or im not attractive at all.then it makes me feel jealous even though i dont want to feel jealous it makes feel like im this evil ass person.which i know im deeply not. why cant i just accept that in my mind andjust be happy for them.then when i think those things my paranoia kicks in and i feel like my guy friends can sense it in me or read me and then i feel guilty about it.im so embarassed this to tell u the truth but can anybody relate or understand me or is their a solution for all this? strange huh?