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ok i am kind of new to the depression thing. lately i sometimes have the word suicide run through my head, not thoughts or images of doing it, just the word, and it gives me anxiety as soon as the word comes to mind. i would never do it, i for some reason just keep thinking of the word. i dont get it. am i alone?

Sounds like more of an obssessive thing to me. If you're not depressed or absolutely fed up with life itself, and hate waking up each day, then you probably have no worries of commiting suicide. I never got the guts to do it, and I was at the most deepest level of depression that I think a person could go. Just relax. And trust me, if you were suicidal, you would know it.

could anxiety have alot to do with those thoughts? i have very bad anxiety all the time. yet at the same time i do feel a bit depressed sometimes. this stuff confuses me

Yes anxiety is what is making you worry. If you were suicidal and had no anxiety, you wouldn't be worried about it. I've been very suicidal, and trust me, you know if you want to kill yourself. Maybe you are just questioning it, as you are not totally satisfied with your life, and then it bothers you to think about it, and then the anxiety kicks in, and you feel like crap. This is only an oppinion. Only you know. I do know, though, that anxiety can be extremely confusing. If you're like me, you question everything. And kind of get burnt out about thinking too hard about it. We just need to relax, I think.

Hey, you are Not alone. I definately get this. in fact this is kinda what I was trying to say in my last post. I get thoguhts of suicide but not of doing it, mostly just the word at random. Maybe they are right it is anxiously obsessive thoughts. How does one stop these from continuing to reoccur?