I've just had a couple of cool examples to share about expecting less and getting more.
So the first night I started session 4 I could not sleep. Tossing and turning and clock watching. I talked to myself, was able to relax and sleep. I woke up with the alarm, angry and anxious. I set the alarm for 7 to get up and clean. I shut the alarm off and told myself I do not need to wake up at 7 to clean. I am allowed to sleep in, and I will not be punished for it. I slept a little longer and got up and cleaned more than I had planned and felt great about that.
I was beating myself up for forgetting to buy garbage bags. I tried hard to change my thinking, but every time I passed the overflowing garbage (I was on the last garbage bag), I thought I'm so dumb I cant believe I forgot to buy garbage bags. So I actually imagined Lucinda talking to me saying, "so you forgot, its no big deal, you are not bad, get them when you can, its no big deal". I open the draw and found a huge new box of garbage bags that I completely forgot I bought about 2 weeks ago!
Then today, I have been nervous and having low level but constant anxiety all day about my library books. They are due today. I tried to go. I tried to call someone to come with me. I tried to think of a way to get there. I didn't go and had an inner battle about it. I finally positively thought something that I could believe. Its no big deal, I will bring them back tomorrow, and pay the 30 cent fine, 30 cents, 30 dollars, 30,000 dollars, not worth my sanity or feeling upset. So I just found the library ticket, and the books are not due till next week. I read the receipt wrong. Got worked up over nothing.
I am really finding the more I trust in this process, that I will prevail (fingers crossed)and good things happen.
