It's so hard...

Ivan28 · Post by **Ivan28** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 7:25 am

I love the program b/c it gives HOPE.... Although somedays I wonder if it's even working... It's so hard... It's very frustrating and debilitating... Will I get back into bodybuilding, I actually don't want to right now b/c it seems to have wrecked my body some bit in only 2-years... However, I am only working out as simple as possible now and I like not being so dependent on exercise... Another thing that bothers me is healthy eating... What bothers me is I know what to eat, it's just hard preparing it and especially during the week... I have so many issues coming from all angles I'd be ok just keeping things simple... It's hard to accept that my thinking was wrong all these years, even before I had anxiety like I do today... But I guess I will just take things easy and one day at a time... I've worked so hard in my life, but right now I just want to take a break from it and take things easy for a while and let my body heal...

Eating healthy takes a lot of work, if you don't have time or want to spend the extra $$ eating out... I wonder how most ppl eat, b/c for me even as a personal trainer, I find it difficult to eat with balance (complex carbs, protein, fats)... I find it hard just getting something to eat... So for right now, I'm eating not so good but I could care less b/c I don't need that extra anxiety in my life right now...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 9:10 am

Ivan, I can relate to your dieting troubles. I've been dieting and hanging out in gyms for about 12 years now. I'm on day4/week4 and I haven't started working out or dieting yet. I really just want to take this time to better myself mentally. I know the way I diet and work out can be very exhausting. I feel like this program is going to change my life and has already given me some very strong tools to deal with anxiety. Do I feel like it's working everyday? No, but I do feel better and I'm going to keep on working on it until it becomes second nature to me. Working out and dieting will always be there for me when ever I'm ready for it, but not right now, there are more important things to deal with. Best of luck to ya

CAP

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 13, 2008 2:09 pm

That's interesting man.. I totally agree.. Bodybuilding will always be there for me... However, I want to try to work on myself right now and I have only been working out for stress relief and improvement of joint function/stability and flexibility... Let's talk some more about it... I like the program it definitely has given me lots of tools.. I love the relaxation CD upon waking.. CD player next to the alarm and I just pop it in and relax for 15-minutes then I eat breakfast... It's been working out fine so far..

chellebelle · Post by **chellebelle** » Fri Mar 14, 2008 11:06 am

I also do my relaxation cd first thing in the morning. It's how I start my day, it's taken the place of coffee. If I don't listen to it I feel lost and don't feel right until I do.

My diet is completely in the gutter right now and my workout is yard work and walking my dog. I could really care less about any of that right now. I'm so use to being at the gym at 5:00 A.M. for cardio and again at 6:00 P.M. to lift. When I'm not doing that it seems like the rest of my day is spent shopping for or preparing food, protien shakes, cleaning my shakers etc. etc... It's like having another job. I can let it really stress me out and I don't even take to a competition level like you do. I just want to take this time to relax and work on the mental aspect of my life. I'm sure I won't be out of the gym for long, but when I do start back I want it to be stress free. I'm pretty sure it's supposed to be.

Peace bro, I'm gonna go enjoy a hot-n-ready pepperoni. Ha.ha...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 7:18 am

Ivan / Cap, I too have been in the life of training and dieting.
Yes it does represent alot of work and stress... making sure that every 2 - 3 hours having a meal prepared.
Every other day at the grocery store... Life was alot easiler when pasta, sandwiches and pizza was my daily diet. Thank God for our cheat days.
My biggest stress or shall we say ANXIETY,, is my fear of losing what I've gained.
So if I don't have my 6 meals a day I freak, if I change my program, and I don't get the result I was hoping for... ( My expectation being too high )
Once again I freak.
Do you guys feel the same?
Steven

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 11:50 am

WHAT'S GOOD STEVEN, I would definately agree that loosin my gains is the hardest part of this. I do feel like I wouldn't be doing as good as I am in this program if I had been lifting/dieting through the whole thing. So I think it's definately worth it. I have been out of the gym for a while now and I'm jonesin to get back in there. I plan on startin back on Monday. I'm going to ease back into it though. I'm gonna make 1 trip/5 days a week. I'm not gonna be in there 2x a day. My diet will be similar to the one they give us in lesson 5. I'm not gonna make this as stressful as it use to be. Workin out is supposed to make you feel better and when you lift like we do it's really easy to forget that. I don't care about how I feel, I just care about what I look like. So when I go back this time I'm gonna try to stay healthy mentally. PEACE BRO

CAP

rene50 · Post by **rene50** » Tue Apr 01, 2008 3:23 am

Cap, great attitute.
You're right,,, we're too much focus on the looks and not the feel.
There was days that it took all I had... especially leg day... Why??? Why would I punish myself that way??? it didn't make me any healther,,, I just looked better.
So I will re focus myself on health instead of looks
Thanks Cap

epa · Post by **epa** » Tue Apr 01, 2008 6:23 am

Hey Steven, I feel ya on leg day. I've been at work and given myself extreme anxiety just thikin about doin legs when I get off. It blows my mind how I could let something so simple get me so riled up. I don't know how many times I would bust my ass in the gym all week just to see how many girls I could hook up on the weekend. Almost like a competition between me and my friends. That's wrong and I apologize to anyone who might get affended reading that. So I'm just gonna try to stay healthy mentally and enjoy it. Looking good is something that comes with it, but I don't want that to be the reason I workout. If I do get back in there and start to get obsessed with it, I'll take some time off and get back to it when I feel I'm ready. Working out is not life, is it? It's easy for me to set here and talk about what I'm gonna do, but we'll see what happens Monday. Thanks for joinin the convo, I thought Ivan and I were the only freaks who could actually get stressed from workin out. Where in the hell is he? He hasn't posted in a while. Hope everything's cool. Talk to ya later.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Apr 17, 2008 6:00 am

Hey everybody.. I took a break from the program.. I met somebody else from here and we been talking off-and-on through myspace... She also took a break from the program or stopped it.. I stopped on CD 5.... As of Monday this week, the relaxation CD is feeling like it is losing it's effect.. And that is not a good for me... So I am here now... Using this website certainly helps me, especially reading other ppl's posts... I've had some great workouts between then and now.. However, my 12-week prehab exercise program is coming to an end... I was planning on getting back into bodybuilding... But I am still on the fence about it.. I still want to get my pro card.. And all the phobias about my joints etc is most likely mental.. I've gone to 2 PT specialists and both did not find anything seriously wrong with me.. just that I might have some wear n tear in my right shoulder, of which ive been using PT exercises religiously for the past 12-weeks.. Ive gained a lot of functionality back... However, I have unfinished businesss with bodybuilding... But I'm on the fence about it... And yes eating healthy and working out can stress me out at times, particularly since I put high-expectations on myself being a personal trainer... I naturally do not have a 6-pack with abs relaxed, but when i flex them, i have a 6-pack.. I've had a 6-pack with abs relaxed when doing shows, but I couldnt eat or train like this year round (5-6 days cardio, 4-5 days weights, eating low-carb 5- days/wk).... So right now I'm ~ 167-170 lb. and my bodyfat is probably 10-12% or something like that... My bodyfat was always an easy 6-8% when I was 18-25... My metabolism seems to have slowed since then, now I'm 28 going on 29.... It kind of sucks, b/c it feels like I need to pay attention more to what I eat etc... I'm seeking balance... Last week was too good to be true.. I prepped meals 1-day and ate beautifully that week, no diet type feeling about it either, just eating heart-healthy meals...

Again, in tape 5 i think, Lucinda mentions basically that for anxiety, a low-glycemic index diet is ideal with protein being eaten at most meals... This anti-anxiety food plan is similar to eating a plain healthy diet... She also recommends exercise... I've been exercising for myself these past 12-weeks... Some workouts good, others not good, and others very very fun and good... Bottomline: I'm just trying to get my mind back into positive mode... When I'm distracted doing something positive, i cant think of anything negative...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Apr 17, 2008 1:53 pm

What's up Ivan? It's great to hear from ya. I'm gonna send you a PM about dieting.